this turbulent love

Chapter 39

Chapter 39

Jian Mo's flight was about to take off, and it was broadcast several times on the radio, and the early arrivals at the airport had already lined up.

The female staff over there kept staring at this man who looked really hard to ignore from the corner of her eye, and after thinking about it, she stepped forward to ask about the man.The man's state was very strange, she asked several times, but he didn't respond, she shook him gently with her hand.This time the man slowly raised his head, his expression was so ugly that it made people tremble a little, he kept his hands on, and he kept saying something.

Startled, the female staff steadied herself before politely asking him if he needed any help.

At this moment, Jian Mo felt that all the surrounding sounds poured into his ears. The farewell reception at the airport and the din of people were none of his business. Without that person, would he be left alone to continue walking on the lonely road now? ?He couldn't help gripping his phone tightly, beside him was the luggage that Gu Yan helped him pack, a huge bag, he seemed to be able to clearly see the reluctance and worry on Gu Yan's face when he helped him pack.

He looked at the mobile phone in his hand again and again. He had made countless information calls, but all of them were turned off without exception.Gu Yan must have wanted to make fun of him, yes, it must be, how could Gu Yan do this?In his heart, he suppressed the panic that he was about to break through, and desperately told himself this way, only then did he have the extra energy to go back to the enthusiastic female staff member, and walked to the security check area with his luggage listening to the flight number.

Yes, he wants to go back, he wants to go back to find Gu Yan, and then be with Gu Yan well, wholeheartedly.Thinking of Jian Mo like this makes him feel restless, he wants to appear beside Gu Yan now, and then hug Gu Yan into his arms, so that the person in his arms can never think of leaving again.

He knew that he hadn't done well before. Although he said he wanted to be nice to Gu Yan, in fact, it was Gu Yan who was taking care of him all the time. Like when he was participating in this competition...was he Believe that Gu Yan can get out of this relationship at once, but when he thinks back on his actions, he has no confidence in himself at all. He is not a good lover, he knows it.

He felt like God had played a joke on him by bringing Gu Yan to his side, and when he finally knew that he could have such a person without being alone, he let this person go away with his own hands.His face was expressionless, his heart was turning a thousand times, but he finally couldn't suppress his panic, and continued to call Gu Yan, as if to give himself a little psychological comfort, not to let himself tremble all over, he was so scared for the first time Lose someone.

The female staff member looked at Jian Mo's back. The man with a strong aura clearly showed a frightened and fragile expression, as if he was about to shed tears.But only for a moment, the moment the man stood up, he immediately changed back to the man who had no flaws before.The female staff member blinked, but she could clearly tell that the man's straight back was stiff, forming a fragile and pitiful back, which made people feel sad all his life.

Jian Mo had no choice but to turn off his mobile phone and check in his luggage when he was reminded to forcibly shut down the phone before takeoff, and then slowly boarded the plane.

Gu Yan, please...

By the time Gu Yan arrived in City Z at night, he was already very tired. He had been on the train for a whole day, and what made him even more exhausted was his cell phone that had been turned off, and the person who made him feel so sad. Unable to control himself, he thought about it for a whole day, and he dared not turn on the phone, no matter what the situation was, he couldn't bear it anymore.

He closed his eyes, stop it Gu Yan, that person doesn't have you in his heart.

As if this sentence touched some emotion, when Gu Yan opened his eyes again, he was a cheerful looking person again.He smiled and started playing with the seniors and boys of the same grade who came together. Several boys of the same age almost immediately got together and walked towards the dormitory specially prepared for them with their arms around their shoulders.

Professor Chen behind them frowned slightly, why didn't he know about Gu Yan who had been with him for almost a year?The seemingly heartless Gu Yan seemed to be smiling happily, but unlike the usual Gu Yan, he gave himself the feeling that he was laughing and crying at the same time.

Z University seems to want to make it easier for Gu Yan and the others to integrate into the life here, so instead of separating them, they are put in the dormitory of their own school students.Gu Yan lived with the students of University Z, and there was only one boy named Yu Kun, who seemed easy to get along with. He helped Gu Yan carry his luggage and tidied up the other bed in the dormitory. clean.

Gu Yan didn't expect to receive such kindness, he quickly thanked Yu Kun, and then speeded up to clean up his luggage.Only now did the two of them have time to sit down and rest, chatting by the way.Some of Yu Kun's roommates went out to live with their girlfriends; some always went out all night, and then they simply moved out.So he was the only one left in the dormitory.

The two chatted for a while, and Gu Yan felt sleepy. Yu Kun who was next to him stopped the conversation when he saw it, and smiled to let Gu Yan rest first.Gu Yan was also really sleepy, so he didn't make any excuses. He went to bed after saying a few more words, and he let out heavy and slow breathing after a while. He hadn't slept so well for a long time.

A few short hours have already made Jian Mo feel that the seconds are like years. He stared at his watch fiercely, watching the second hand on it turn little by little. He had never felt that the time was so long. It made him feel that he couldn't help rushing to the cockpit and holding the captain's collar to let him speed up. He seemed to be sitting in a steam room, so anxious and stuffy that he was about to suffocate.

Fortunately, the plane finally arrived at City X when Jian Mo's patience was almost exhausted.He didn't care about his luggage at all, and immediately took a car to X University after passing the security check. Now he was frantically trying to find Gu Yan, and he didn't dare to waste even a second on himself.

But when he rushed into Gu Yan's bedroom uncontrollably, he found out that Gu Yan's bed was empty, and there was no one in the room, not even Gu Yan's roommate.Jian Mo's pupils shrank suddenly, and he opened Gu Yan's locker. There was only a pitiful amount of luggage in it, and even some of Gu Yan's daily necessities disappeared.He stabilized his feeling that he was about to lose control, and went to the place where Gu Yan put his suitcase. As expected, the suitcase was gone.

The last bit of hope was exhausted, and Jian Mo squatted down as if he had lost all his strength.The boy next door heard the movement here and came to see Jian Mo. He didn't know what to do for a while, and finally he could only see Jian Mo squatting down, burying his head in his knees, and then, as if by illusion, from the There came a few nasally sounded words.If he hadn't seen this scene, he would never have imagined that Jian Mo, who seemed indifferent and powerful, would appear in such a slumped posture.

Jian Mo stayed for a while before leaving, he seemed a little dazed, grabbed someone and asked about Gu Yan's whereabouts, but no one knew, they didn't even know who 'Gu Yan' was.In this way, he asked many people one after another, what face, what self-restraint is all gone now, he just knew that Gu Yan was gone, and he couldn't find him.

It wasn't until someone he knew came up to grab Jian Mo and took him to his dormitory that Jian Mo regained his sanity.He turned on his phone and looked through his contacts, but there were only a few empty people on it, and the only person he knew with Gu Yan was Xiaoqian.He put down his phone and put his hand on his forehead, he didn't even have a number for Gu Yan's friend.

He asked himself, how sad did Gu Yan have to be to leave without saying a word?There is no answer, and the person who could answer is no longer here.It was as if the air had been taken from him all of a sudden, without Gu Yan's voice, without Gu Yan's fuss, he felt like he was about to suffocate.He inhaled heavily for no reason, scaring the person he knew to death. When had he seen Jian Mo like this?

Jian Mo regained some strength, refused that person's company, then turned around and walked towards Gu Yan's bedroom.

When Li Sheng and Wu Yu returned to the dormitory, they were almost terrified, and the door of the dormitory was wide open.The two of them looked at each other, held their breath and didn't know what they were holding in their hands, and then walked forward gently.

There was nothing unusual in the dormitory, except that Gu Yan sat alone on the empty bed.The two of them took a closer look, isn't that Gu Yan's cousin?He was sitting on Gu Yan's bed blankly, the phone in his hand was still on, and it showed Gu Yan's number.Seeing the two of them, he stood up all of a sudden, his face was ugly, and the hand holding their shoulders made them feel a little painful.

"Where is Gu Yan?"

Li Sheng and Wu Yu didn't know either. Gu Yan didn't explain many things clearly. Just like this time, they only knew that Gu Yan went to other places for communication, and they didn't know other details. At a loss.Li Sheng wondered why Jian Mo didn't know about this, but right now he didn't say anything, and silently took out his mobile phone to call Gu Yan, but it showed that it was turned off.

He only felt a little nervous now, and seeing Jian Mo's nervous appearance made him feel that there was something wrong. He quickly told Jian Mo all the details he knew about this incident, and then saw Jian Mo's lips pursed tightly. The back view of rushing away from the door.

Jian Mo went to the teacher in charge of this project according to Li Sheng's words, but he was not there. He went around a few times, and then went directly to the office where these projects were archived, but there was a reminder to close the door on the door. For other methods, Jian Mo will wait in front of this office.

When the office teacher came to the office early the next morning with a hat, he saw a man standing in front of the door with air-conditioning all over his body. He knew him, and he was Jian Mo, a junior.He didn't know how long Jian Mo had been waiting, but he couldn't allow him to think too much. When he saw that Jian Mo's fingers were turning purple from the cold, he quickly took out the key and opened the door to let Jian Mo in, and then turned on the heater.

Jian Mo waited for the muscles on his body to relax a little, and immediately stepped forward to read the information.The teacher was really ups and downs in the morning. He felt that there were a lot of strange things today. He stepped forward to stop Jian Mo's actions, because most of them were not materials that students should read.Jian Mo raised his eyes to look at the teacher, and didn't make things difficult for him, but tried to slow down his tone, stated the details of Gu Yan's project, and then talked about the situation, hoping that the teacher could help him .

The teacher saw that Jian Mo's handsome face could not find any trace of blood, and the whole person looked like he had not rested for several days, and his heart softened all of a sudden.He agreed to Jian Mo and asked Jian Mo to sit down and rest, but Jian Mo refused, and stood behind him and looked at him without blinking.He didn't insist, and found the project file according to what Jian Mo said, and found it not long after.

Jian Mo who was behind took the document, glanced at the address in a hurry, thanked the teacher politely, and left in a hurry.

Jian Mo directly made a phone call to book the nearest air ticket to City X, and then hurried to the school gate.He felt that the things on the side of the road were blurred, and his temples hurt suddenly. He knew how embarrassed he was now, but he couldn't care less.All his luggage was thrown at the airport, and he didn't even have much cash on him, so he had to take a taxi and drive in the direction of his apartment.

After opening the door of the room, he went to his room and stuffed some clothes indiscriminately. Seeing the half-empty cabinet, he felt a little pain in his heart, so he accelerated his speed, but when he passed the study, he stopped in his footsteps.Who has entered the study room!

He was so shocked by this discovery that his heart stopped for a second. He could imagine that there were not many people who could enter the room, and Gu Yan was one of them.He heard his violent heartbeat and opened the door, the inside was neat and uncluttered, but he knew clearly that someone had gone in, and no one inside knew what to do better than him.

He clenched his palms tightly, feeling the burning pain from his palms, he approached the table, and there was a diary on it, the date he opened was when he was with Gu Yan, his face turned pale, and then There is nothing more cruel than this.Before, he was very confident that as long as he found Gu Yan, they would be together, but now, he looked at the room full of his feelings for Xiaoqian.

He suddenly lay down on the ground, covering his eyes with his hands, the deepest things in his heart, the things he didn't want others to know the most, were laid out like this, and placed in front of the person he loved.How disappointed Gu Yan was, he thought, he now knows.All his strength to persevere was taken away in an instant, he pressed his eyes tightly, and then the water stains slowly flowed down through his hands.

All his embarrassment was laid out in the sun, in front of Gu Yan's eyes.

The reason why he didn't talk about it with Gu Yan was because he didn't know if the relationship between them would be the same after talking about it, and it was also because in his heart it wasn't time to talk about it.So what now?

Would Gu Yan still want such a humble self?

He suddenly remembered the last words Gu Yan said to him, take good care of himself, a little strength grew in his heart, Gu Yan still loves him.Thinking of this, Jian Mo stood up and walked in another direction with one foot deep and one foot shallow. It looked like he was stepping on some kind of quagmire. It was weird, but he kept this posture and walked slowly towards Go outside.

The author has something to say: Well, the school is disconnected from the Internet at night. . .

Completely stunned.... What was posted in the morning....