Clear and Muddy Loss of Love

Chapter 237

nowhere to escape the debt

On the other side, in the main hall of the small courtyard where Xiaodie lived, the sisters of the Nangong family seemed much more silent, as if they were all waiting for something together, and rarely talked.

Nangong Jingnv only said to Nangong Shunv: "Second Sister, Qi Yan said that this is the last time he sees Xiaodie."

The first one who couldn't help it was Nangong Jingnv. She looked at the dripping hourglass in the house. It was only half an hour, but she felt that it had been a long time.

Nangong Jingnu: "Second Sister, why...why did Xiaodie stab you?"

Nangong Shunu replied softly: "In this matter, you and the eldest sister both blamed Xiaodie wrongly. I did insert the dagger myself. I didn't lie, and neither did Lily."

Nangong Jingnv said in astonishment: "Why?"

Nangong Shunv: "It's been a long time, Xiaodie seems to be a different person suddenly, shutting herself in the room all day long, not talking to anyone. She even rejects my presence, I tried Many methods including that time begging you to bring Qi Yan to enlighten her were useless."

Nangong Jingnu exclaimed: "Could it be...Second Sister, are you playing tricks?"

Nangong Shunv didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and replied: "It's not impossible to insist on saying this, but I didn't intend to do this before, so it can be regarded as a mistake."

Nangong Jingnv looked at Nangong Shunv in a daze: This incident almost killed my second sister, if there is no millennium snow ginseng in the palace or the snow ginseng is eaten by the emperor, I am afraid that I will be separated from my second sister. .

Nangong Jingnu: "Is it worth it?"

Nangong Shunu replied without thinking: "It's worth it."

After a pause, Nangong Shunv continued to explain: "You don't matter if you call me despicable or unscrupulous. In my life... the first 20 years I lived in my own grid and dared not take half a step. I always think about my own. I was born as a concubine, thinking about my unfavored mother, thinking that my father doesn't want to see me... Slowly, I live more and more cowardly, and I clearly don't want to marry that person, but I still do. Obviously longing for freedom outside the palace, but since I got married, I have never pretended to go out... until I met someone and did a ridiculous thing."

Nangong Jingnu: "Is it Xiaodie?"

But Nangong Shunv shook her head, Ji Ya's figure flashed in front of her eyes, suddenly like a dream.

What seems to have happened yesterday is already very far away.

Although Shunu Nangong didn't love Jiya, she couldn't deny that it was Jiya's madness that made her see different things and taught her to be brave.

Even though Nangong Shunv did not agree with some of Jiya's practices, she saw another way of life for women.

Nangong Shunv continued: "Later I met Xiaodie, that was the darkest period of my life. Xiaodie healed the wound in my heart with her gentleness, and slowly lived in my heart. She It's so good...it's very special. It's a quality that can't be described in detail, from Xiaodie...I have experienced the cleanest side of human nature, I..."

Seeing Nangong Jingnv's expression changed, Nangong Shunu realized that Xiaodie was also caught between her and Qi Yan, and changed the subject.

Nangong Shunu: "My first time with Xiaodie, I was the one who seduced her, and I wanted her. From that night on, I swore that I would never let her down in this life."

Nangong Shunv: "But then Xiaodie changed suddenly. This change was so sudden that I didn't even know where I was wrong. Every day I felt like I was going to lose her. This feeling was worse than death. This There are some feelings in the world...you can't stand the cold. If it's been cold for too long, it will always change. I'm afraid that Xiaodie will get used to the days without me and treat me as nothing. I'm afraid that she...will no longer love me .”

Nangong Jingnu: "So you...don't cherish your own life?"

Nangong Shunv: "Actually, there is some misunderstanding here. I also heard about it from Xiaodie later. During that time, Xiaodie had nightmares every day. She thought it would be better to put a dagger under the pillow, but Lily came to report in a hurry and didn't say anything. To understand the reason, I thought Xiaodie was going to commit suicide, so I rushed over to save someone and had an argument with Xiaodie. At that time, I didn't think about anything, I just thought about taking the dagger off, and at the last moment, Xiaodie let go of me It was only then that I suddenly realized that this might not be the case, but it was too late. When the dagger stabbed into my body, I saw Xiaodie’s flustered look, her anxious and worried expression, and I knew she was still There was mine. At that time, I... was a little lucky, thinking; if being stabbed can reopen Xiaodie's heart, it would be worth it."

Nangong Jingnv was speechless for a long time after hearing this.

Nangong Shunv said to herself: "Xiaodie has been taking care of me for the past few days, so I realized that she didn't have a good time when she locked herself up. Our feelings and moods are the same. Although I still don't know what caused Xiaodie to do this, but I believe... she won't do this to me again."

……

On the other side, Qi Yan and Xiaodie talked a lot.Perhaps it was because Qi Yan regarded this as the last meeting between himself and his sister, so he lost his scruples.

Qi Yan explained why he split up with Xiaodie at the beginning. Qi Yan felt that he was a prince from Wei and should come to chase him and give Xiaodie a chance.

Qi Yan also talked about the death of Liuhuo, the nameless valley of the masked man, and the days she has experienced in these years.And how she took revenge step by step with various means.

Xiaodie's tears have never stopped. She never thought that her brother would go through such an experience. Compared with her ups and downs, Qi Yan's life is wandering on the edge of the knife every day. A little carelessness is irreversible. .

Through Qi Yan's narration, Xiaodie soon discovered that when her brother mentioned Nangong Jingnv, his expression would soften, his eyes would be filled with tenderness, and even his words... would be protective everywhere, leaving all Not all of them are taken to themselves.

Xiaodie has already understood what feelings are, and she knows: her brother is hopelessly in love with the "target" she calls.

Xiaodie looked at Qi Yan distressedly: "Brother."

Qi Yan withdrew from the memory, looked at Xiaodie with a smile: "What's wrong?"

Xiaodie hesitated: "You love sister-in-law, right?"

Qi Yan is still smiling, but Xiaodie can read endless sadness from that smile.

Qi Yan replied in a very soft voice: "Yes, I love her."

Xiaodie fell silent, and her heart twitched.

Asking herself with all her heart, after hearing this, she couldn't see the hope of this relationship.If he changed places, would he forgive Nangong Shunv?the answer is negative.

Xiaodie doesn't know Nangong Jingnv, only knows that she is the first female emperor in ancient times, but Xiaodie doesn't think she has the heart to forgive the murder of her father.

Xiaodie didn't know what to say, so she could only keep silent.

Qi Yan looked at her sister and let out a long breath of relief.He pampered Xiaodie's head as he did when he was a child: "Since you were in our mother's womb, I have been looking forward to your arrival. When you were three years old, I told your brother Bayin: I We must protect you well. The year Er Rihe brought Jiya to visit, I still thought... the person who will marry you must be the number one warrior in the grassland, so I will work hard, and your future husband will at least You have to beat me."

Xiaodie's teary eyes: "Brother..."

Qi Yan: "In a blink of an eye, you became so big, but my brother broke his promise. Although Nangongshu is a woman, in my opinion, she is stronger than too many men in this world. My brother only realized it after he grew up. The strength of her is not her fierceness, but her heart. I feel relieved when you are together. As for Yu Xiao...you don't have to worry, I will take good care of her. As for Jin Wushu...Ba Yin will treat him as a Parent-child treatment."

Xiaodie: "Brother, what about you and sister-in-law?"

Qi Yan didn't answer this question, and asked Xiaodie to go back on the grounds that the time was not short.

She finally told Xiaodie: If her father and mother were still alive, they would definitely not agree to her revenge.It is far more difficult to let go of a hatred than revenge. Maybe this sounds like a sarcastic statement, but only when you have experienced it like her can you understand the wisdom in this sentence.

Qi Yan and Nangong Jingnv returned to the palace, Nangong Shunv lay on the bed and waved towards Xiaodie.

Nangong Shunv: "Come here."

Xiaodie came to Nangong Shunv's bed with her head down, and said nothing.

Nangong Shunu pulled Xiaodie to put her on the bed: "Does your eyes hurt? I'll ask Lily to get some ice to apply to you?"

Xiaodie shook her head: "I..."

Nangong Shunv squeezed Xiaodie's palm: "You don't need to say anything, I believe you. When you want to say something, I will always be there."

After speaking, Nangong Shunv moved her body with difficulty, and patted the position next to her.

Xiaodie lay down next to Nangong Shunv, pillowed on her arm, and naturally placed her hands on Nangong Shunv's body.

Nangong Shunv couldn't lie on her side yet, but she turned her head and kissed Xiaodie's forehead, and said softly: "Go to sleep, don't think about anything, everything is up to me."

Xiaodie: "Yeah."

It's not that there is no premonition in Nangongshu's heart. Xiaodie is not as deep as Qi Yan, and she will always reveal some clues inadvertently. Nangong Shunu has vague guesses in her heart, but the truth is too bizarre and tortuous. so deep.

Qi Yan was introverted and deep, surrounded by mist. Although Nangong Jingnv lived with Qi Yan every day, she was a fan of the authorities.

……

Xiaodie and Qi Yan made an appointment, and if Nangong Shunv's health improved, she would confess to her. Qi Yan had made up her mind: when Xiaodie and Nangong Shunv left, it would be the day when she and Nangong Jingnv had a showdown. Shu Nu protects, Nan Gong Jing Nu can't do anything to Xiao Die.

As for Yu Xiao...even if he dies, he must protect her.

Penetrating wounds are the most difficult to heal. Even though Nangong Jingnv sent an imperial doctor to come every day and used countless natural resources and treasures, Nangong Shunv still lay on the bed for more than three months.

From midsummer to early autumn...

As time passed, Qi Yan became more and more uneasy, and she had a vague premonition that lingered in her heart.

Now that the imperial court has finally returned to peace, and Qi Yan has completed seven volumes of "On the Ten Malpractices of the Old Politics", but she seems to have forgotten one thing - the one-year period given by the masked man is coming.

Until one day, Qi Yan received a report from Qian Tong: There was news from the private house that an old friend came to visit.

When Qi Yan came to the private house, he saw Lu Qiaoshan, who had already paid homage to the minister of the Ministry of Industry, the person who had gone to the prison of Dali Temple to deliver news for the masked man.

Qi Yan knew: After all, he still couldn't hide, the injustice came to him.

After entering the study, Wu Er stood guard at the door.Qi Yan was silent, and Lu Qiaoshan was not polite, not even making false greetings.

I saw Lu Qiaoshan took out a boxy oilcloth bag from his bosom and handed it to Qi Yan: "The name of this thing is 'Xiaoyao San', it is colorless and tasteless, and it seals the throat when it sees blood! The master ordered you to find a chance to put it in the In Nangong Zhenzhen's diet, the news of Nangong Zhenzhen's death is used as a sign, the master and you should work together to regain the country! Don't worry, as long as Nangong Zhenzhen dies, someone from the inner court will take care of you and guarantee you to retire. Master There is a saying, once this matter is completed, you should be the first to contribute, and when the time comes, you will be a high-ranking official and a rich salary, and you will be chosen by the king."