There is a kind of love that is insincere

Chapter 11

After he put the shoes on for me, he went to change his own shoes. The soft light hit his beautiful face, as if everything was silent.

Zhuo Luoyin, I don't like you, so you don't like me, then we will all feel better in the future.I will think, not say, still hesitating, whether to score or not.

"What are you looking at?" Zhuo Luoyin turned her head to see the other party staring at him in a daze, the blank look was quite cute.

I covered my face, "I didn't see anything."

Hehe, what can I see about you?What do you like?Do you just have a little white face?

Zhuo Luoyin did not miss the other party, he knew that the other party was looking at his face, he didn't care about this face before, but now it is inexplicable, a little concerned and a little irritable.

"Let's go to the library again later."

"Ah? Go again." I exclaimed, thinking that I would not be able to escape and open the library today, don't.

"I'm just going to borrow a few books."

"What book do you want to borrow? I want to read it too." I said, wondering if Yu Yueshui would also like the book that Zhuo Luoyin likes to read?They both have the same interests, right?

He glanced at me and didn't answer me. When I got to the library, I saw the book, and I was neither interested nor capable.Because all he read was profound philosophy books, which I couldn't understand. He also took a few books on law, and I seemed to catch something.

"Are you going to go to law school in the future?" Actually, I didn't expect his answer very much.

He nodded and turned his eyes to the book again. I felt depressed, not for him, but for my own heart.I think with my current grades, even if I work hard, I don't know if I can get into a good university, but Zhuo Luoyin is different, her family is well-off and smart.It's really unfair, but can I complain about my birth?After all, everyone has his own life. No matter how well he lives, it is his life, not mine.I remember my deskmate said that every time Zhuo Luoyin's teacher was the first in the whole grade, I don't know how he did it?Do you have superhuman skills? "How do you keep doing so well every time you take the exam?"

He turned his head to look at me, as if a little happy, but I don't know where his joy came from, "Just listen carefully." After speaking, he smiled again.

I felt baffled, but I still said, "It's great, if I have your brains, my parents will definitely be willing to hold parent-teacher meetings for me every time."

When he smiled, something flickered in his eyes, which dimmed.

I thought about it, and then asked, "Are you sure you want to go to law school? Are you considering other majors?"

He stared at me, "This is just my current thought, and it won't be necessarily the case in the future. If you don't want to, I can change my major."

etc!stop!I can't let him pay like this, can I?Does he really, really like me?I think it may be or not, but the fact that such a beautiful and attractive Zhuo Luoyin can associate with me has already shown the answer.

"Is that so?" I whispered lightly, but I didn't get too entangled. I wanted to say that you don't need to be like this, but I still didn't say it.If we can't be together after all, I still hope that he and I are friends.

But can we be friends?Will neither he nor I mind if we break up?

"What about you? Yuan Yi."

"Me? Me what?" I looked at him vaguely, and he sighed, making me wonder.

"Is there any major you want to study?"

I thought about it for a while, trying to avoid this word, and I couldn't think of what major I could study in the future.I have no plans for my future.Just going to high school according to my parents' wishes.Numb and enduring the pain, until the wings are full and I can get rid of my parents, I may be able to be free.

"I want to major in finance, but I'm afraid I won't be good at it." As I said that, I felt more and more hopeless. Until now, I don't know what I can do with finance, investment?Financial management?

"It's a good profession."

I smiled very lightly, "By the way, where is Yu Yueshui? Does he want to go to law school as much as you do?"

Zhuo Luoyin shook his head, shook the book in his hand to me, "He wants to be a writer, but..." He hesitated, and then said, "His parents won't let it."

"That's it." I unconsciously lowered my head and looked at the books on the bookshelf, feeling a pain in my heart, a slight pain, short and quick.

I picked up a book and didn't mean to ask, "Why?"

He raised his hand to brush my face, and said softly, "I can't say anything about his family, I can only tell you that he will inherit the Yu family in the future."

"Yu family, what about you? You don't inherit the Zhuo family?" I whispered, and he heard me.

"I have an older brother above me, it's not my turn."

When I was young, I also hoped that I would have an older brother so that when I was unhappy, I could cry, but I regret not having one.

He didn't notice my sadness, "Do you want to borrow some books to read?"

"No need." I shook my head, thinking of something else, "I'd better borrow two books, and I can look through them when I just chat. Maybe I can find the golden house or get Yan Ruyu from the books."

"Then you go and choose two books, and I'll help you pay for one piece."

.okay. "

Zhuo Luoyin smiled, and I went to pick out books without saying any more.This time, instead, I took a serious look at the books on the bookshelf and picked up a few materials that could help me write.

Zhuo Luoyin frowned, probably because he was thinking too much, and asked in a gentle voice.How do you want to see this? "

I bowed my head and said, "Recently, the Chinese teacher asked us to write a composition, which is just for reference."

He didn't make a sound, but shook my hand with a smile, "Let's go, let's go to settle the settlement."

"Ah."

Lies can't be exposed, so you still don't want to know who I really feel in my heart.

I still didn't tell Zhuo Luoyin about the breakup that day, I was procrastinating, and I was going to procrastinate, but I didn't know when it would be.Maybe after high school graduation, or the day my deskmate finds out, or it's for him.Man, what exactly do you want?A sincere, true love?

By Monday morning, my body clock hadn't recovered.I really don't want to get up, so I stay in bed. If I didn't set the alarm clock to wake me, I guess I would sleep until noon.I lazily got up and went to the bathroom to wash up. I moved slowly, and it took me a long time to put on my school uniform.

When I went out of the room, I saw the breakfast prepared by my mother on the dining table, but there was no sign of my mother in the room. She must have gone to work.Then I don't have to pretend.

I walked to the table, took the porridge and poured it into the pool beside me, then turned on the water to flush the pool clean.Now I felt more at ease, took the two yuan on the table, and walked out.My home is not far from the school, and I can walk to the school, but recently, I can only take a long detour by car, and it costs only two yuan to go back and forth.

I was waiting for the bus at the station, but I didn't see a car that I could take for a long time.I looked at my watch, the time displayed on it made me frown, I thought I was going to be late, right?At this time, a tall boy with a drawing board ran to the station. He seemed a little anxious. I saw that he was holding an admission ticket in his hand. He should be participating in a drawing competition.He was handsome, but his clothes were very ordinary. The white shirt seemed to have been washed many times, and the black canvas shoes were a little faded.

We were the only people waiting for the car. A car came from a distance and stopped in front of me and him.In fact, we are just strangers and have no intersection.Suddenly he came to me, and after hesitation, he said to me dryly, "Student, can you lend me two dollars? I want to take this bus to take the exam, and I was too anxious to go out and forgot to bring the money. Well, I, I Will pay you back."

I saw that there was indeed anxiety in his eyebrows, and thought that he might really be late, so I might as well help him kindly.Although I said I was going to be late too, I still gave him two dollars from my bag.

"...You go to the exam by car."

He thanked me for looking at me, "This money, what is your contact information?"

"You don't need to pay it back, it's only two yuan." I showed him a friendly smile, we met by chance, and it's nothing to help him.

He looked at me, walked to the car door, turned his head and said to me, "My name is Lan Shining, thank you."

His smile was bright and pure, and then he got into the car. I saw him still waving at me when he got behind the car, but the car gradually drove away, and his figure disappeared from my eyes.

When I saw the car driving far away, I squeezed my schoolbag tightly for a few seconds, and then realized that I had no money to take the car. I felt a little regretful, regretting that I should have taken two extra yuan.But this is not something I can think about now, I am more concerned about whether I will be late for school!ah!be late!

I ran in the direction of the school quickly, exhausting all my strength, but I was still late and stopped at the school gate, waiting for the morning meeting to finish before I was let in.Thinking about it, this was the first time I was late since I was in high school, and it was only the first time, but I was scolded by the head teacher and fined to do two hundred squats.Because the student is late, the teacher's salary will be deducted, so you all understand.

As I did it, I scolded myself for being stupid, and I should put my own interests first, but the matter is over, and I haven't regretted it. I hope that boy named Lan Shining can take the exam as scheduled.After I sat, my legs were already weak, and I didn't eat, it was even more uncomfortable, and my stomach was cramping.

My deskmate saw that I was not feeling well, and worriedly asked, "Do you want to ask for leave?"

I shook my head and lay down on the table angrily, "No need." But I didn't want to move, my legs were sore.

After morning reading, my deskmate went to the school store to buy food for me. I thought he was very nice, really nice.

"Someone from Yuan Yi is looking for you." The classmate in the front row called me, and winked at me, making me puzzled.

I got up slowly, and when I arrived at the door, I felt even worse when I saw Zhuo Luoyin.Fortunately my tablemate was not there, otherwise I felt that I was going to die, thinking about my tablemate going to buy me food, I hoped that Zhuo Luoyin would leave quickly.

"How did you come?"

He raised the bag in his hand and smiled at me, "I bought some food for you, eat it as a snack when you're hungry."

He handed me the bag, which contained biscuits and milk, but I felt cold in my heart and said hurriedly, "Thanks."

"But, um, don't you want to eat?" I lowered my voice, and many students passed by in the corridor, as if talking about me and him.

"I ate too much breakfast, I'm not hungry." He looked at me with a smile, rubbed my hair, leaned in my ear and said, "Wait for me at noon."

I blushed first and then turned pale, but he didn't see my abnormality, so he left with a smile.

I froze for a moment, and when I got back to class, I was surrounded by many girls and boys, asking questions, which made my stomach hurt.

After my tablemate came back, I knew that Zhuo Luoyin had looked for me, so I quickly asked, "Yuan Yi, does he know you?"

I nodded, not wanting to admit it, "Well, I almost know each other."

He looked at the bag in my hand with resentment, "We almost know each other and bring you breakfast? Are you lying to me?"

"He and I are in the same company, and he takes good care of me." I was afraid that he would say something else, so I gave him all the food Zhuo Luoyin gave me, "You eat, I will eat what you bought."

As soon as I said it, he was overwhelmed with joy, "Really, really? Are you really giving it to me?"

He said that he held the bag in my hand and did not let go, I think it is difficult to say no.

"Yeah, here you are." I said flatly, and continued to lie on the seat without touching the things he bought.He held that bag like a treasure, but it made me sick.

I heard my classmate was still teasing about the things ahead, and looked at my deskmate worriedly, and he was holding a bag, smiling foolishly.I buried my head on my arms to cover up my unnaturalness, and suddenly the time slowed down a little bit, and then a little bit slower, until noon in the end.

I spent the five morning classes in a daze, and finally fell asleep on the table, and the bell after class did not wake me up.

After class, Zhuo Luoyin came to our class, he saw that I was sleeping, so he didn't wake me up earlier, but sat aside, looking at my sleeping face.

Maybe he thought about something and had to call me afterwards, "Yuan Yi wake up?"

He patted my cheek gently, which made me nostalgic.I opened my eyes in a daze, and was stunned when I saw Zhuo Luoyin, I stretched out my hand to wipe my mouth, feeling relieved, fortunately I didn't drool.

"Have you been here for a long time?" I stretched and looked at him intently.

.No, just finished class. He helped me smooth my messy hair, with a gentle expression, "Are you tired from class?"How sleepy? "

.At one point, I fell asleep for a while. "

He laughed, "Really? Why do I think you slept in a class."

.Where do I have it?Also, just under half an hour! "

"You." He shook his head helplessly, and didn't say anything about me, but pulled me up, "Let's go, let's go eat, you should be hungry."

When he said that, I was stunned, "Why didn't you say it earlier, I didn't bring lunch money."

"It's me." He took out his wallet, I knew Zhuo Luoyin was rich without looking, but I didn't want to take advantage of him.

Seeing that the other party is struggling, he knows what the other party is thinking and what he is worried about, but he has no other intentions. He just wants to have dinner with the other party at noon and stay a little longer.

He raised my face and looked at me tenderly, "Yuan Yi, my money is your money, don't think too much."

I looked at him, and finally nodded. I think that when I have dinner with him in the future, I will take out my wallet, so that I won't owe him favors.

"Tomorrow, I will also eat out." I said, thinking of reciprocating courtesy.

Zhuo Luoyin smiled, her eyes were mostly doting and loving, "Yes. But now let's go eat today's meal."

I replied, "Okay then."

When he was about to pull me, I didn't dodge. When I went downstairs, I met the head teacher. I politely shouted, "Hello, teacher."

He glanced at me and Zhuo Luoyin, went upstairs without saying anything.

I breathed a sigh of relief and withdrew my hand without showing any traces. I shivered when I thought of the [-] squats he punished me this morning.

"What? Are you afraid of your class teacher?"

I nodded, thought for a while and said,Today I was late and he made me do squats. "

Zhuo Luoyin frowned upon hearing this.He punished you physically?How much was the fine? "

"Not many, only two hundred."

Zhuo Luoyin didn't speak after listening, he thought he should give the school a feedback.In the past, he felt that it was none of his business for those teachers to punish some students physically, but he felt very uncomfortable when the other party was punished physically, as if he was the one who punished them physically.

I saw that his face was not good-looking, and he was surprised at first, but then he understood something.It's okay, anyway, this corporal punishment is the same as doing sports, it can exercise the body. "

I smiled, I didn't want Zhuo Luoyin to be unhappy because of my affairs, but to care.Zhuo Luoyin sighed softly, and tightened my hand again, "If you want to tell me about this kind of thing in the future, I will help you deal with it."

"it is good."

I didn't take his words to heart, but I didn't know that he already took my affairs to heart. He seemed to care deeply about me, and it made me feel guilty. Similarly, guilt doesn't mean that I can like him.He led me out of the campus. Passers-by looked at us. He didn't care, but I was awkward, so I could only be awkward.

I think he treats me so well, why does my heart still feel that something is missing?

Even if he can give me warmth, but in this warmth, there is one less thing I look forward to.

such as……

such as……

Like what?Are they like his eyes?

In the afternoon, the class teacher sent us a list of student status, saying that we must check the information accurately, and then take photos of ourselves and upload them to the education website.

I looked at my information on the list, there was a mistake in the name line, so I changed my name to Bai Yuanyi.

After my deskmate saw it, he looked at me strangely.He pointed to my parents' names, looked again, and asked, "Yuanyi, your surname is Bai, and your parents' surnames are Qin, shouldn't you take your parents' surname?"

I was slightly taken aback, "I don't take their surnames because I'm on someone else's account."

"Remember?" He was even more strange, and I was also very strange.

"My mother said that when I was born, there were too many procedures for registering their household registration, so that's all I could do."

"That's it." The tablemate seemed to understand, and went back to busy with his work.

I looked at my name and thought that if I were called Qin Yuanyi, my name would not be as nice as Bai Yuanyi.What a great surname Bai.I sent the student status slip to the Internet, and just about to put it away, I was going to hand it over to the head teacher tomorrow morning, but when I was drinking water at the same table, the water glass was overturned, and the student status slip was wet.

He looked at me in a panic, and quickly said, "I'm sorry, Yuan Yi, I didn't mean to."

I wiped it with the paper, and it was still rubbed off, so I shook my head at him, "It's okay, at worst, I'll go to the Academic Affairs Office and ask him to print another copy for me."

He said guiltily, "Do you want me to accompany you?"

"No, I'll go by myself." I knew he didn't mean it, and I wasn't angry, but fortunately, I've already taken the student registration form.

I came to the door of the Academic Affairs Office, hesitated to call the report in, but didn't expect Zhuo Luoyin to be inside.He seemed to be helping with things, and he was the only one in the Academic Affairs Office. When he saw me, he smiled at me.

"Why are you here? Did you come to see me specifically?" He asked and looked at me expectantly.

"I accidentally wet the student status list." I moved to his side and said slowly, it seemed that he was dealing with student status.

.What is your student registration number?I'll reprint a copy for you. "

"You can do it?"

Zhuo Luoyin looked at me, nodded with a smile, "Well, I helped others do it before."

"Why do you know everything?" I muttered in a low voice, a little envious, a little jealous and a little irritable.

"What did you say?"

I shook my head, "No, I didn't say anything, please print a new copy for me."

Zhuo Luoyin smiled, reached out and pulled me towards him, pushed the keyboard towards me, and entered the number.

I lowered my head and pressed the keyboard, looking at the screen, not knowing that Zhuo Luoyin was always looking at me.

Zhuo Luoyin waited for me to finish losing, and suddenly said to me, "I'll take you home this afternoon."

"Ah? Let's forget it." I don't want him to come to my house again, and I resist his intimacy.

"What's the matter with you?" He frowned and looked at me quietly, I was terrified by him.

"Because I'm going to be on duty, I'm afraid you will wait for me for a long time."

Zhuo Luoyin pursed her lips, always felt that the other party didn't want him to give it to her, and it was the same for lunch today, the other party didn't seem to like eating with him.

"It's okay, I'll wait for you." He didn't mind waiting for the other party, anyway, he was alone when he got home, and he wanted to accompany the other party.

I heard what Zhuo Luoyin said, so it's hard to say no, it's just that my deskmate is also on duty.

"I'll look for you later, don't come to our class." I said lightly, lowering my head.

He frowned and asked, "Why?"

I smiled and said, "You are now in the third year of high school, and studying should be the time to work hard. I think you should focus more on your studies. After all, you will take the college entrance examination in more than a year. I don't want to delay you because of me. "

The corner of his mouth raised, "Yuan Yi, are you concerned about me?"

I nodded and looked out the window, the sun was about to set.

I tilted my head and asked, "Did you fix it for me?"

"Yeah." He responded, but said in confusion, "Don't you share your parents' surname? Or did you change your surname?"

It’s this question again. Many people have asked me since I was a child, and my deskmate also asked me, is it so strange that my surname is not Qin?

"No, my surname has always been Bai, and there was a typo on it."

"Qin Yuanyi? Bai Yuanyi sounds better." Zhuo Luoyin always felt something weird when he read my name, maybe he was thinking too much, how could there be so many complicated things in the world?

Yes, in this world, complicated things are turned into small things early, and we are implicated one by one, like a spider web, closely related.

He pressed print, and the paper was swipe out of the machine, and he held it for a while before giving it to me.I clenched it tightly, thinking I couldn't let it get wet again this time.

"I'm going back to work first."

"Well, go, don't forget to look for me, I will wait for you in our class."

"it is good."

I turned around and was about to leave, but thought of one more thing, I couldn't say a word to Zhuo Luoyin after holding back for a long time, I wanted to wait, wait a little longer.

I went out of the Academic Affairs Office and walked to the class. I happened to meet the head teacher at the door of the office and gave him the list.He smiled kindly at me, but I shivered inexplicably. Could it be that the head teacher picked up money today?

When I returned to the class, almost all my classmates had left, only some people who were on duty were left, and my deskmate had already packed my schoolbag for me, "Thank you."

He hugged me, "We brothers still need to thank you, but have you finished your list?"

I nodded, "Well, I've handed it over to the class teacher." But when I thought of the smile on my head teacher's face, I was really puzzled, and asked my deskmate, "Do you know what happened to the head teacher today?"

My deskmate looked at me and thought, "Did he scold you? Or beat you?"

I coughed, "No, he smiled at me a bit unusually."

My classmate said loudly, "No way, he is already at that age, so he shouldn't mislead you like that!"

I blushed one after another, and stretched out my hand to hit him, "He's the one who misguided you."

I touched my head at the same table and said with a smile, "I'm just kidding, just kidding."

I glanced at him, then went to sweep the floor, the more I thought about it, the more I felt that the head teacher's attitude towards me changed too quickly, could it be because of Zhuo Luoyin?And what kind of identity is Zhuo Luoyin?

I saw my deskmate coming over, so I asked, "What does Zhuo Luoyin's family do?"

He looked vigilant, "You won't like him too, no, you can't rob him from me."

"Take your head!" I knocked him on the head, really wanting to tell him, even if I don't like Zhuo Luoyin, there are so many people who like Zhuo Luoyin, it's not your turn, but I don't want to hit him confidence.

"Can you be more normal-minded? Not everyone likes people like Zhuo Luoyin!"

He was stunned, "But why are you so emotional?"

"I'm mad at you! Ah! I don't want to talk to you anymore!"

He grabbed me, "You don't like people like Zhuo Luoyin, then what kind of people do you like?"

I have to say that my tablemate's thoughts only revolve around such superficial questions, which really makes me worry for him.

"Guess what?"

"Won't it be Yu Yueshui?"

I didn't say a word, panicked, turned around and continued to sweep the garbage.

He followed me and kept asking, "Is it? Isn't it?"

I turned around, calmed down and said, "It's not him."

"Who is that?"

I ignored him, and he wisely stopped asking.

After Zhuo Luoyin finished her work, she just left the Academic Affairs Office when she happened to meet Yu Yueshui who was looking for him.He stopped at the door, and Yu Yueshui gave him his schoolbag, holding a basketball in his hand, "Let's play together."

He smiled lightly, "No, I'm going to send Yuan Yi home later, you can go by yourself."

Hearing Zhuo Luoyin mention that name, Yu Yueshui frowned, "Do you need to be so conscientious? He's not a child."

"Don't say it, he's no different from a child, I have to watch him." Zhuo Luoyin was worried about the other party, and he was too lazy to play basketball with Yu Yueshui, and it wasn't interesting for the two of them to fight back and forth.

"Are you really interested in him?"

He asked back, "Do you think I'd make fun of my feelings?"

Hearing this, Yu Yueshui frowned, he actually didn't want to think about Zhuo Luoyin and that person, he thought that Zhuo Luoyin was just trying something new, but he didn't expect it.

Oh, it turned out that in the end, he still had no chance.

He looked at him, "Luo Yin, actually being gay is very hard."

Zhuo Luoyin sighed, but with a smile.I know, but I can't let him go. "He can't tell his relationship with the other party clearly. It seems that the more he is with the other party, the more he cares about the other party. He feels flustered when he can't see the other party for a day.

"You've only dated him for a few days? You can't let him go?" Yu Yueshui's tone was agitated, and he realized it after he finished speaking, and he didn't want to quarrel with Zhuo Luoyin because of that person, because he felt it was worthless.

"If you have someone you like, you will know how I feel," Zhuo Luoyin said, not paying attention to Yu Yueshui's gloomy expression.

"Okay, okay, I don't understand, you go find your Yuan Yi slowly, I'm leaving." Yu Yueshui said irritably, waved Zhuo Luoyin, and went downstairs stiffly.

Zhuo Luoyin stared at the direction where Yu Yueshui left, and shook his head, it wasn't that he was thinking too much, he knew that Yu Yueshui had a good impression of him, but they have been brothers for so many years, if there really was spark between them, it would have been Well, it's better not to pierce that relationship now.

He believes that Yu Yueshui will find someone who can make him love, and that person will definitely not be him.

Zhuo Luoyin withdrew her gaze and stopped thinking too much, as it would be of no benefit to anyone if she thought too much.Some people can only be friends, but Yu Yueshui is the one who can only be friends with him.