love like a shooting star

15

15.

Bai Tiejun and Gan Xiaoning were leaning on the sofa without any image, they had drunk too much wine, and they were talking nonsensical drunken words one after another.

"I said, Lao Bai, you are the big boss now, you have a successful career, you are doing well, why don't you start a family?"

"Do you know what celibacy is? Celibacy means you can't have a family." Bai Tiejun's Tang Shan's voice twists and turns.

"Boss Bai, you are too serious. You don't think much of it, hehe."

"Don't just talk about me, A-Gump, aren't you also a bachelor?"

"I'm not in the same situation as you. No one cares about me. I'm a poor guy." Gan Xiaoning smacked her lips, wondering in her heart, this wine is quite high-grade, but why is it a bit bitter... Classmate A-Gump couldn't figure it out, so he continued to laugh To himself, "I'm not handsome, only a handsome man like the company commander can marry a beautiful wife."

"I'm not even handsome!" Bai Tiejun yelled excitedly, obviously quite drunk, he just heard a "bang" and knocked his head on the table.

Gan Xiaoning rolled his inflexible eyeballs, and suddenly thought of something: "Oh no, where did the company commander go?"

Bai Tiejun tried his best to open his slit eyes: "Why is the squad leader gone?"

"The company commander is so unkind, he disappeared while playing without singing a song." Gan Xiaoning muttered dissatisfiedly, "It's so funny, the two of them disappeared together, don't go on a tryst somewhere."

Bai Tiejun slapped his forehead suddenly, as if he had suddenly realized: "Student A-Gump is correct!" Then he yelled bitterly: "Deputy Wu, something serious happened, your squad leader asked the company commander to abduct him!"

The two live treasures spoke louder and louder, but Wu Liuyi sat stiffly, as if he didn't hear it. In fact, he kept this posture without moving since Shi Jin left.He drank a lot of wine, but he wasn't half drunk. Wu Liuyi's cheeks were tightened, which made his handsome profile perfect. His eyes were fixed on the direction of the door, and crystal waves shattered into pieces.

When Shi Jin regained his strength, Gao Cheng had been gone for a while.Originally, Gao Cheng would never abandon him and go first. After this night, the two of them lay on their necks, their sweaty bodies sticking together without any gap. They wished to hug each other forever.The cell phone rang untimely, Gao Cheng stood up to answer the phone, and pulled out the softened thing, Shi Jin shuddered in pain.

"Xiaorou." Her voice was hoarse after passion.

"Are you done with it?"

He knew that Ji Rou was asking if the party was over, but in connection with the situation in front of him, Gao Cheng's heart seemed to jump out of his throat when he saw the person curled up beside him tiredly like a small animal.

"Also, we have to wait a while." He said guiltily.

"Gaocheng, I'm not feeling well, my stomach hurts, can you come back?"

"Xiao Rou, don't worry, don't move around, wait for me at home." Gao Cheng's heart beat even harder, and when he thought of his wife's eight-month pregnancy condition, guilt surged into his heart.

Shi Jin turned sideways, looked over with clear water-like eyes, Gao Cheng's heart trembled, he hesitated to speak.

"Go back, company commander, and see how sister-in-law is doing."

Gao Cheng felt even more guilty when he was looked at by such eyes, and of course this time the guilt was for Shi Jin.His throat was choked, and he couldn't say anything for a while, he hugged the person in his arms fiercely, and kissed deeply one after another on that thin body.Gaocheng at this moment is not so much about giving as about getting.Get a kind of affirmation, a kind of comfort.Shi Jin stretched his body in response to his kiss, and at the same time wrapped his arms tightly around the solid back.

The two lingered for a while, Shi Jin pushed Gao Cheng: "Go back."

"What about you?" Gao Cheng stroked Shi Jin's soft short hair worriedly.

Shi Jin's face became hot: "It doesn't matter, I'll just rest for a while."

Gao Cheng put on his clothes, stood by the sofa, looked at Shi Jin silently for a while, and said in a low voice, "I'll go first." He seemed to want to say something, but he turned around and walked slowly towards the door without saying anything.

"...Company commander." In the darkness, Shi Jin suddenly called him.

As if a mantra pierced through the ages in thousands of lifetimes, Gao Cheng immediately stopped in his tracks.

"That's it, Captain." He said softly.

Silent, you can almost hear each other's breathing and heartbeat.After a while, Gao Cheng uttered a few words in a hoarse voice: "Don't think about it, wait for my call."

Shi Jin's breathing was stagnant, and he was in a trance. When he came back to his senses and turned his head to look, the door was empty, and the tall and straight figure had long since disappeared.

Lying silently on the sofa, his whole body fell apart, as if he had been dismantled and put back together inch by inch.A burning pain came from an unspeakable place under his body, reminding himself that the ups and downs of the night were not just a dream.

Still no strength, but had to get up.The sky was already bright, and the light that leaked through the crack of the door was spotty and mottled. This relatively hidden room could not hide any more secrets.Shi Jin sat up and put on his clothes, got up a little bit harder, and was accidentally overwhelmed by the sudden sharp pain coming from under him, so he leaned back on the back of the sofa all at once.

The shirt was unwearable, not only because of the flying buttons, but because it was almost torn in two.Shi Jin couldn't help recalling how his company commander frantically tore his clothes and took him in the violent massacre last night.Covering his eyes with his hands, the temperature on his face that had just receded was scorching hot again in an instant.

Reluctantly put on the clothes, every movement will involve the pain in the body, and finally wrapped himself tightly with the coat.Shi Jin stood up slowly and walked out slowly, his footsteps were somewhat unnatural, suddenly a sticky feeling slid down the inner thigh without warning, Shi Jin staggered away in panic and shame.

Wu Liuyi was nowhere to be found, so Shi Jin leaned on the railing and gasped for breath.His body was getting worse and worse, and he would feel dizzy after running a few more steps. What's more, he had experienced such intense sexual intercourse that Shi Jin's face turned red.He wondered if Wu Liuyi knew something, otherwise he couldn't find him for such a long time, and according to that guy's temper, he would have to tear his arm apart in a hurry, but so far he didn't even have a phone call.

Shi Jin looked left and right, his eyebrows twitched, as if he was being stared at.Turning around abruptly, there was a woman standing by the window at the end of the corridor. Her belly bulged and her body looked heavy, but she was still a beautiful woman.The delicate and delicate face was unreal in the dark light, but Shi Jin could feel that she was looking at him.Unable to tell what kind of expression was in those eyes, she walked towards herself slowly.

"Can I talk to you?" she said.

The place of conversation was a western restaurant nearby.Ji Rou ordered a cup of hot milk and asked Shi Jin what he wanted to drink. Shi Jin thought about ordering ice water, which made his mouth dry all night, as if a fire was burning in his throat, and he really needed to quench his thirst.Ji Rou asked for a few more snacks at random, and then stared at the food in a daze.

Shi Jin took a sip of the ice water, and the cool feeling made his chaotic thoughts gradually clear. Looking at the woman in front of him, he was full of guilt, especially after what happened last night.Shi Jin pursed his lips, raised his eyes and called sister-in-law.

Holding the milk cup, Ji Rou was silent for a while, trying to calm herself down, as if she had made a lot of determination, she said: "I knew you existed before Gao Cheng officially introduced you to me yesterday."

Shi Jin blinked his eyes suddenly, then slowly lowered his gaze.

Ji Rou laughed at herself: "he dreams almost every night, and he only calls out one name in his dream. I have been thinking, and I have never been able to figure out what kind of woman can make my husband so fond of dreams. But I never expected, The [-] possibilities that I once imagined are not true, and my rival in love is actually a man."

Shi Jin shuddered, not daring to look up at her. It was absolutely not his intention that things had developed to this point. Some things inadvertently broke away from the reins of reason and ran towards unpredictable directions, just like moths to a flame. Everything, until death.

Ji Rou said: "You don't have to feel embarrassed, Gaocheng looks at you differently from others. As a woman, I can't accept that my husband likes men, but I have to admit that it's love."

"It's not the company commander's fault, it's my fault." Shi Jin's pale face turned red, but he still tried his best to explain, "Since I chose to retire, I shouldn't have anything to do with it. I didn't."

But Ji Rou's eyes were red: "I don't blame him, and I don't blame you, I beg you, please leave him."

Shi Jin raised his head suddenly, his eyes flustered, but his tone was sincere: "Sister-in-law, you must believe me. I will never dare to have such unreasonable thoughts about the company commander. I will leave Beijing immediately and will not let anyone find me." .”

Ji Rou couldn't help sobbing, she hated her gaffe, but couldn't hold back the tears that rushed out of the gate, Shi Jin handed over a tissue, and Ji Rou took it and wiped it carelessly.

"Such a request may be too much, but as a woman, I just want to keep my husband by my side." She stroked her abdomen with her hand, smiling a little sadly, "The child is about to be born, I hope he will be in a normal family." I grew up in the environment and had a happy childhood. My parents love him very much. I don’t want my child to know that his father loves a man in his heart one day. Shi Jin, I can tell at a glance that you are a good person, and you must also I don't want Gao Cheng to be talked about behind his back. Gao Cheng is an officer, what does homosexuality mean in the military? Such gossip will affect his future and even ruin him. So, I beg you to leave."

Ji Rou took out an envelope from her bag, and gently pushed it in front of Shi Jin: "This is for you, as compensation."

Shi Jin stared blankly at the thickness of the envelope, and said flatly, "Thank you, but I don't need it."

Ji Rou examined every subtle expression of Shi Jin, and said in the same light way: "One must be realistic, it is not easy to cut off all social relations, how will you live in the future, maybe, you are just perfunctory to me..."

"Sister-in-law!" Shi Jin interrupted her, this gentle man finally had anger on his face, but smiled abruptly, he said, "Actually, my thoughts are very simple, I don't ask for anything else, I just want to be worthy of myself heart. If you really want this money, then what will I do!"

……

When Shi Jin walked out of the restaurant, it was extremely cold outside and the wind was blowing. His thin body couldn't help shaking a little, like a wandering spirit that might be blown away at any time.There was a mess in his head, and the chaotic images popped up at random without any logic, and a voice in his ears that was so familiar that he was in his flesh and blood called him—today, but he couldn't agree.

His whole body was in pain, especially that place, every step he took felt like being torn apart, but the most painful thing was his heart.In his memory, the images of Gao Cheng hugging him passionately and the image of Ji Rou bursting into tears alternately emerged, which made him feel unforgivable.Shi Jin called a taxi, the driver asked where he was going, Shi Jin was stunned for a while and said the train station, the driver looked at him strangely, and then started the car.

He began to stare out the window for a long time in a daze, his face became more and more ugly, and he suddenly asked the driver to stop before he reached the place, paid the money hastily, and rushed out. "Sir, wait a minute, there is no change yet! Sir, are you okay?" The driver called him worriedly, but Shi Jin hurried away without looking back.

This place is not too far from the train station, Shi Jin identified the direction and walked into a small park by the roadside.On both sides of the cobblestone path are rows of trees, with branches that have lost their leaves standing alone.Shi Jin held onto a tree and vomited. He vomited up what little food he had, leaving only yellow-green bile mixed with strands of blood.The overwhelming stomach cramps made the vomiting unstoppable. It was like a torture. Shi Jin almost collapsed in the dark.

Finally, I couldn't vomit anything anymore.Shi Jin stood up unsteadily, walked forward slowly, but suddenly squatted down as if he lost his strength after walking a few steps, this time he didn't want to vomit, but wanted to cry.Soon there was a hot and humid touch on the arm, and he didn't deliberately endure it, so the tears became more and more turbulent.Shi Jin is an emotional person, he doesn't think it is a shameful thing for a man to shed tears, he just cries when he wants to cry, and this time the tears are for himself.Shi Jin stayed in the small park for a long time, his physical strength was severely exhausted, and his mind was dizzy, but Ji Rou's face suddenly jumped out, begging him to leave Gaocheng with tears.

——Not to blame him, not to blame you, but I beg you, beg you to leave him.