Yifeng + Continuation: Qinglian + Continuation: Angel Tears

Chapter 19

The method is determined, the determination to leave.

I am sorry.

……

Stepping on the starlight before dawn,

I quietly pack up

in a hurry

Again gently.

because,

don't want to wake up

my lover of the night

Walking between light and shadow

I silently wait for the ship

Nostalgic

And helpless.

because,

There are many people seeing off

but you don't know me

Standing on the deck dyed with morning glow

I quietly stare at the channel

uneasy

And excited.

because,

I don't know, on the way

Will there be, a beautiful encounter

I put enthusiasm

left to the eternal night,

I put tenderness

left to dawn.

people i will meet

such me

What can I give you?

perhaps

i can give you

a journey.

such

May I?

……

If there is an angel, will he shed tears for us?

If possible, I hope, he can hear, my prayer - please, don't shed tears for me.

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Extra episode "You and Him"

You find that you are more and more in a daze.

Qinglian asks what you are thinking.You realize that you don't really think about anything.

There are many gaps in your life, and you find that you cannot adapt to these gaps.Just like you, you can't adapt to the life without him.

Doing the math, you and him have been obsessed with each other for more than half a century.

The first time you saw him, you were only [-] years old.And now, you are over [-] years old.

I really lived a long life. After he left, it has been such a long time, why is he still alive and strong.

Isn't it that for you, the time that has been flying by for others seems to be fixed.

Probably not.

I remember that in the year he left, Qinglian only grew to the level of your chin, and the female cat at home just became a mother.

And now, the green lotus has grown longer than your nose, and the cat mother has become a cat mother-in-law.

It should be, only myself, to freeze time.

Whenever you think of him, you will always be in a daze.

In fact, you have the habit of being in a daze since you were a child.

Listening to the sound of the wind will make you daze, listening to the sound of rain will make you daze, thinking about things will make you feel dazed, thinking about nothing will make you daze, thinking about him...even more daze.

"Mingjia... what are you thinking..."

You like to be in a daze, always have.

But he will always call you gently when you are in a daze.

At that time, your eyes and your heart will all be him.

No time to think about anything else.

But now, when you are in a daze, he will never call you again.

However, you have no time to think about anything else.

There is no him in your eyes, but he is in your heart.

Lingering.

More than [-] years is such a long time.

At the beginning, when I said "forever", I never thought that it would really be a lifetime.

When you met, you were [-] years old and he was [-] years old.

He told you that he loved you long before you met.

What age would that be?

If you ask, he won't tell.

The beautiful blue eyes smiled, and the lips kissed yours.

He said, you are his prince.

You say, he is the prince.

He laughed and said he was a prince and you were a knight.

The knight will guard the prince until -- forever.

After speaking, he laughed again.Kiss you, make a promise with you—forever.

When you were in a daze, you recalled him.He and you, every bit of you.

He said his name was Han Yifeng.

He said that the person he likes is called Li Mingjia.

He said he wanted to be with you forever.

He said that because of you, he is very happy.

Thinking of his happy appearance, you also feel that you are happy.

And, you think, you love him.

At this age, I still think this way. Although it feels a bit embarrassing, I am still happy.

You smiled and felt that your expression at the moment resembled him.

You really gave him happiness.

You, really love him.

Remember once, you hated him.

At that time, he was already your true love.

Because of true love, you will be suspicious; and because of true love, you will be afraid of betrayal.

He has done a lot for you.

For example: Suicide -- more than once.

Another example: self-harm.

He hurt himself and broke his heart into pieces.

Everything is just because he loves you.

Even, better than his life, his everything.

You stayed, and for him, you abandoned everything about yourself, guarding him, and giving him one—forever.

But the price is that you can't go back to the past, your happiest days.

He loves you, but he wants to deceive you.

His love makes you hate him.

Why cheat?Why have lies?Why... can't go back to the beginning...

You hate, hate his deception, and hate yourself for being incompetent.

But you still love him, you can't, really hate him.

For you, he mutilated his legs; for you, he always pretended to lose his memory.

He loves you, so he lied to you and himself.

You hate him, but also love him.

In your life, only each other is left.

It's like two vines clinging to each other on the wilderness where life is burnt out, never leaving.

He smiles at you and you smile at him.

He tells you stories, you tell him, and you still want to hear it.

He told you that he loves you.

You look into his eyes, clear eyes, clearly reflecting your shadow.

You realize that you don't hate him anymore.

You find out that you really love him.

For a lifetime, they just cuddled together like this.

He always smiles at you, very happy.

You always think, is he really happy?

So, you treat him doubly well.His smile at you makes you happier.

You love him, really love him.

You like his voice, you like his smell, you like his smile.

You like everything about him.

Even, you willingly think that you are the one who exchanged everything you have for a lifetime with him and earns it.

You love him and he loves you too.

Happiness, in fact, does not need so much.

Even if it is incomplete, as long as it is happiness, it doesn't matter what the situation is.

For the rest of your life, you live happily ever after, and forever is not a myth.

Forever, in fact, is not far away.

You find out that you are actually very vulnerable.

Because, you dare not touch, the fact of his death.

"Ming Jia, I'm sorry."

At the last moment of his life, he showed an apologetic expression on his aging face.

"I haven't told you, I... actually... haven't forgotten anything..."

Holding his hand, maybe time has diluted the original emotion, and you are not angry.

"Yi Feng, I know." You smiled slightly, and kissed the back of his withered hand, "You won't be willing to forget even a little bit of the memory of our love. In fact, I can't bear to forget it either."

Tears welled up in his blue eyes.

You lean down and kiss the tears away - like, you did half a century ago.

"Mingjia...I love you..."

At that time, he showed the most beautiful smile just like when you met more than half a century ago.

You love him, and you love his smile.

Some people say that the cruelest thing God can do is to let the person he loves die in front of his eyes.

But you, don't think so.

He looked at you, smiled, then closed his eyes without opening them.

Such a peaceful face, just like him, who often takes naps.

He was very happy, until the last moment of his life, he was happy.

He is happy, as you said, you are also happy.

How happy you are to have him until the end of his life.

You have each other and you are both happy.

The days passed so slowly, everything changed, everything changed.

However, there are still things that remain the same.

Your bed will always be paved for two people.

Your breakfast will be made into portions for two people every day.

Your newspaper will always be placed within that person's reach.

Your furniture will always be placed where that person likes it.

Even though, your bedside is no longer warm; even though, no one will finish another breakfast; even though, the newspaper will never be turned over; even though, no one will use the furniture again...

Despite this, although everything has changed, you have not changed.

You love him and it won't change.

You find that you no longer cry.

When the man stopped breathing, Qinglian cried bitterly.

But you didn't cry.

You realize that you miss him a lot.

When dreaming, I can often dream of him - sitting in the flower field, he smiles at you slightly.

You find that you and him, in fact, are not separated.

you love him.

he loves you.

You, will not be separated.

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