this turbulent love

Chapter 45

Chapter 45

Ever since Jian Mo mercilessly pulled that boy out of the party last time, Gu Yan's negative impression because of this news has miraculously disappeared.Others may not know the reason, but they will still subconsciously put Gu Yan in the position of a victim.

Gu Yan couldn't care so much recently, he stared blankly at the beautifully packaged breakfast at his fixed location, he looked around, but obviously no one knew why there was breakfast here, the several places next to him were already There was someone, so he had no choice but to continue to sit in that position, and he didn't know what was going on until someone he knew very well was sitting beside him.

Jian Mo sat expressionlessly on the seat of the compulsory course for the sophomore year, as if he had no idea that Gu Yan was sitting next to him, Gu Yan's body stiffened instantly.When he almost couldn't bear to stand up and run away, the professor outside the door had already entered the classroom, Gu Yan had no choice but to sit down again.

In the midst of a class, Gu Yan didn't even listen to a word. He only knew that Jian Mo beside him was carrying a familiar aura. Although he seemed to be listening to the class all the time, Gu Yan was sensitive. He could feel Jian Mo's eyes on him all the time, which made him a little uncomfortable and nervous.

He tried his best to calm himself down, but he still failed at a note from someone around him.

"sorry."

These three words were written in correct block letters, just like Jian Mo, when Gu Yan saw these three words, he almost trembled uncontrollably.

sorry?What does it mean?Now he really wants to question Jian Mo loudly, what does it mean to write sorry now?Say sorry to something, say sorry to something.Is it about Xiaoqian?He just didn't like him from the beginning to the end, heh, what is there to be sorry for?The grievance and pain he had been enduring all this time erupted in this sorry.

He stared at the words on it, dazed for a long time, until he liberated himself from the state of trance.He turned his head, and Jian Mo was still perfect and tall as always, with a delicate profile, a cold expression and an always straight back.Jian Mo seems to have never changed, except for this sorry.

Gu Yan got up in the next second and asked for a leave of absence from the professor who couldn't stop talking, and grabbed his bag and ran out the door regardless of whether the professor agreed or not.Jian Mo just sat on his seat like this, he slowly took the handwriting that Gu Yan was looking at just now, there was a small dot on it that was soaked, showing the dark part, he stroked it It seemed that the liquid was still warm, and touched his face lightly, then carefully folded the paper and put it in the innermost pocket of his clothes.

So, Gu Yan, you still like me a little bit, right?He knew how stupid it was to laugh now, but he laughed like this in the still silent classroom, as if he had won some supreme glory.

Gu Yan bumped into a lot of people when he ran out, he just said sorry blindly, put all those cursing behind him, and then continued to run outside the courtyard, he felt that the air here now made him feel a lot of pressure, he I feel like I'm about to be crushed the next moment.

He couldn't help thinking about the meaning of Jian Mo's coming here, and what Jian Mo said to him about being sorry.He could no longer imagine that it was evidence that Jian Mo still liked him. If he just felt uncomfortable before, then the last time Jian Mo's mother came to him in person, and heard from her that Jian Mo liked Xiaoqian a lot In [-], even his mother was aware of things, and he felt that he was probably blind before not being able to see these things.

He doesn't need to be sorry, he can't say what he wants, what he wants, he has had it before, he thought he had it before, and now he knows it.He felt that he had to say something, do something, but he couldn't do it, as if he could only run out in disgrace like just now.

Bitch!He scolded himself.Jian Mo, he ruthlessly chewed these two words in his mouth, chewing them to pieces.

He didn't stop on his feet, went straight out of the school gate, and then took the bus. He didn't want to go to Zhuang Qian's side for the time being, but he couldn't think of where to go, so he stood on the bus, and went all the way to the terminal after getting on the bus. Gu Yan didn't get out of the car until the last person was gone, and the driver reminded Gu Yan.

He just let himself walk like this, walking through the streets and alleys, not knowing the destination, until the phone rang in his hand, he slowly picked it up.Over there, He Xiao was gently asking himself where to meet, and then went on to discuss what to have for lunch.Gu Yan listened to He Xiao's warm voice, as always, he really wanted to tell He Xiao that he probably couldn't accept him, that he couldn't listen to anything now, that he was feeling very uncomfortable now.

But until the end, he still couldn't say a word. He could only tell He Xiao that he would have lunch with Zhuang Qian and the others, and after saying sorry, he hung up the phone.He looked at the mobile phone in his hand, and felt that he was really selfish, that he knew He Xiao's intentions, but still couldn't say anything.

He didn't want He Xiao to get hurt, but he couldn't just stay with He Xiao like this, the person he liked was still that person, but now he had no reason to stick to it.He didn't want He Xiao to be like himself, repeating his mistakes completely, that would be too cruel to He Xiao.

Thinking of this, a text message suddenly came to the phone, it was He Xiao.Above is a question of 'where are you'.He randomly broke into a place, but he didn't expect that He Xiao would send a reply of "You're not here" not long after.He was stunned, He Xiao really went to that place, thinking about it, he suddenly felt a little sorry for He Xiao.

He hurried back to He Xiao and told him that he was outside now and would not go back for the time being.He Xiao over there also replied with an 'um' and then didn't reply.Gu Yan breathed a sigh of relief, he felt a lot of pressure for He Xiao's meticulous care, and he couldn't repay him.He was on the messy street, and for the first time, he had the idea of ​​"just don't go back, don't see anyone, don't listen to any voices." ' Thoughts.

After waiting for a long time, Gu Yan felt better before returning to Zhuang Qian's place, but he didn't expect that He Xiao was sitting on the stairs at the entrance of the corridor. It seemed that he had been waiting for a while. Tiny little sweat, looking at himself with a smile.Gu Yan felt sour in his heart, he shouldn't be like this, how could he let such a beautiful He Xiao experience it again?He stared fixedly at He Xiao, and then took a few deep breaths.

"Yes..." Probably seeing the guilt in Gu Yan's eyes, He Xiao couldn't guess what Gu Yan was going to say next, his smile froze, and he almost couldn't hang on.He clenched his fists a little bit, then tried his best to put on a smile, and asked Gu Yan pitifully:

"I came here from such a long distance, Gu Yan, why are you so cruel not to invite me in for a meal? Or, just drink tea?"

Gu Yan looked at He Xiao like this, sighed, then took out the key to open the door, and invited He Xiao in.He Xiao looked at Gu Yan's expression, buried his face in the shadow, raised his head and followed Gu Yan into the room as if nothing happened.

In this way, Jian Mo finished the class completely, then walked out of the classroom, and went to Gu Yan's dormitory that he had visited last time.There was only Yu Kun in the dormitory, it was not as hurried and messy as last time, but it looked like Yu Kun was living alone.Yu Kun was startled when he saw Jian Mo, and when Jian Mo asked about Gu Yan, he hesitated whether to tell Jian Mo, but in the end he told Jian Mo that Gu Yan had moved out as if he was defeated, but as for Where he moved to, he only knew that he was living with his friends, and he really didn't know anything else.

Jian Mo didn't have any special expression when he heard the words, but Yu Kun could still clearly feel Jian Mo's confusion and loss.After he asked for Gu Yan's class schedule for this semester, he politely said goodbye to Yu Kun and left.

Every day after that, Gu Yan always received breakfast from different people, which made him a little flattered, and asked He Xiao about it, but He Xiao didn't know, and he couldn't refuse those half-baked people. People had to accept it.

Later, it became more and more serious. Those people even prepared their own lunch and dinner. Gu Yan really had to refuse this time, but those people just put down their things and disappeared, which made Gu Yan feel uncomfortable. Words are somewhat unacceptable.

He Xiao knew it when someone delivered food at noon on the first day. He looked at the sign on it. It was a high-end restaurant. He asked a person who delivered food to Gu Yan, and then he knew that someone was delivering food to Gu Yan. It's strange to say that the food is delivered.He dragged Gu Yan to squat there that day, and then saw Jian Mo handing over the packing box from that restaurant to another person, and then that person left.

He Xiao lowered his head to look at Gu Yan, but Gu Yan lowered his head, he couldn't see Gu Yan's expression clearly, he could only see Gu Yan's clenched fist that was turning white.He put his hand on Gu Yan's back, trying to comfort this obviously emotionally unstable person, but he felt uncomfortable in his heart.

Gu Yan's subordinate was trembling, not knowing how he was feeling now.

Gu Yan was indeed emotionally unstable. It's not that he didn't think about Jian Mo doing it, but he still denied it, because he knew that Jian Mo was busy every day, so busy that he didn't have time and energy to do these things, but now seeing Jane Mo Mo didn't believe it until he carefully handed the lunch box to that person.

He really can't figure out Jian Mo now, doesn't he like Xiaoqian?So what's going on now?

He endured it, but still ran out, and poured out all the words he had held in his heart for a long time towards Jian Mo who was still standing there.

"Jian Mo, I didn't know how big your heart was before, I probably don't know now, I never knew what you thought, your heart is too small, you can only hold one person. I don't know what I was at that time I don't want to know what role I played. Jian Mo, I never knew you were so powerful. You can love someone desperately, but you can still be with another person. I'm not as good as you, I'm not like you So powerful, I only know that if I like it, I like it, and if I don’t like it, I don’t like it! I know I’m stupid, but Jian Mo, even if a stranger treats you like this, you should have some reaction? Jian Mo, I really like you I'm so tired..."

His words almost used up all his strength, He Xiao who was behind him heard Gu Yan's words, came up and pulled Gu Yan to leave, but Gu Yan's other hand was held by Jian Mo.

Jian Mo looked at Gu Yan, and said word by word, clearly, "Gu Yan, I'm sorry."

The sadness in Gu Yan's heart is even worse, is it just because of guilt?Then, he would not exchange such a cheap sorry for his crazy and passionate feelings!

He looked at Jian Mo with a gloomy look, the anger and sadness in his eyes were thick, he took the fingers of Jian Mo's hand and broke them apart one by one, leaving Jian Mo and He Xiao alone. People leave.

The author has something to say: what do I want to say?

Work has been a little too brutal lately.

My God~ Let me have Jian Mo's mind and skills! ~