this turbulent love

Chapter 51

Chapter 51

After leaving from Jian Mo's side last time, Gu Yan couldn't tell what kind of feeling he felt in his heart, he felt like he was back in a trance, when nothing happened.

He lowered his head, as if nothing had happened, it would be great if that was the case.He was sure that Jian Mo must have him in his heart, because no one would care so much for someone he didn't care about at all, let alone someone like Jian Mo.

It's just that when he thinks that there is another person in Jian Mo's heart, he will feel like someone has poked a hole in his heart, and a cool breeze passes through. No one will be generous in matters of love, and it is directly proportional to the love he gives. Even more so, the more he cares about Jian Mo, the more he cares about everything Jian Mo has.

But after that, Gu Yan felt that it was easier for him to compromise with Jian Mo, and he spent more and more time with Jian Mo. Fang Hui knew what was going on, but she chose to let Gu Yan decide what to do. How to do it, as for Zhuang Qian, he still doesn't know that Jian Mo lives downstairs in their house.

Just like now, Gu Yan looked at the steaming pot under his hands, and suddenly sighed that the world has changed too fast.He rolled out the cooked noodles, put them into the bowl with the soup, added an egg on top, put some chopped green onions, and sent them to Jian Mo who was sitting at the table reading a book.

Jian Mo seemed to be staring at Gu Yan all the time, and he didn't look away until he came out. Gu Yan was almost stunned by Jian Mo's eyes, but fortunately, he sent the face to him.

call.He let out a breath, looked at Jian Mo who was eating noodles with a satisfied face, and asked a question that he had struggled with for a long time.

"Jian Mo," Jian Mo looked up at him, "When will your legs be better?"

This sentence is straightforward, the atmosphere seems to have stopped all of a sudden, Jian Mo put down the chopsticks in his hand, and lowered his eyes slightly, Gu Yan couldn't see Jian Mo's expression clearly, his heart skipped a beat suddenly, as if he had done something, But in his heart, he still felt that this should be the case. He would feel very tired if the relationship between them was unclear.

He wants to get rid of all these reasons and excuses, get rid of all the messy so-called emotions, he is also a man, if he can, he also hopes to have this man completely, and he is not allowed to have anyone else in his heart .He looked at Jian Mo, let this be his little wish.

He clenched his hands unconsciously. During this period of time, he struggled with it for a long time, and he wanted to ask this question for a long time, so he asked it naturally today.

Jian Mo raised his head, Gu Yan never felt that time passed so slowly, as if a day and night had passed for a long time, the next sentence Jian Mo said was:

"Gu Yan, can you give me a hug?"

Gu Yan was taken aback for a moment, but he didn't know how to proceed.He looked at Jian Mo, and then lowered his head in embarrassment. Jian Mo's reaction when he saw Gu Yan did not seem to change, but the curvature of the corner of his mouth seemed to droop a little, but it was fleeting.

"It's okay, I can wait."

When Gu Yan heard these words, he could clearly feel the small emotions in Jian Mo's mouth. Didn't he have tasted all the flavors in it at that time?Is he not so small in Jian Mo's heart?Thinking of this, he felt that the gray area seemed to be much more alive.

So, can he also indulge himself?He raised his head suddenly, and then went up to hug Jian Mo at a very fast speed, just like that, he felt that the gap between them was rumbling and starting to disintegrate.

He didn't know why he made such an action, but he just did it.Jian Mo didn't seem to expect such a result, but he reacted quickly, and then reached out and hugged Gu Yan from behind.

That's great, Jian Mo hugged Gu Yan's warm body, and this person finally hugged him again.So, is there hope between them?He couldn't help but hug this person even tighter.For this person, he recognized everything he was before, as long as this person can still be by his side like now, everything is enough.

He embraced this guy who could now be called his faith, almost in a devout state of mind.He has never believed in anything, but now he is extremely grateful.Although it was just a hug, he had longed for it for a long time.

Days are like years, he has already spent an unknown number of days and nights alone, he does not know how decadent the long time will be, and he does not know how many years have passed.

"Gu Yan, I want...to kiss you." Jian Mo couldn't help saying this, and then he was pushed away. He looked up at Gu Yan, wanting to know what happened. All he could see was Gu Yan looking at him and walking away for a while.He rushed up hastily, but forgot that his feet were still in plaster, and rolled straight out of the wheelchair.

Hearing the voice, Gu Yan turned his head and saw Jian Mo lying on the ground in a miserable state, so he immediately turned over and helped Jian Mo up.When he heard Jian Mo's words, he was really stunned. He was full of joy at first, but was beaten back by this overly intimate gesture in the next moment, and then he only thought of leaving.

He sighed, and put Jian Mo on the wheelchair, his hands were held tightly by him, and he had no strength left to break free.He looked at Jian Mo, then opened his mouth to pour out all his thoughts,

"Jian Mo, you like Xiaoqian. You have liked Xiaoqian for so many years. I can't guess how deep this kind of love is. It was even deep-rooted when we were together. I like you."

What Gu Yan said made Jian Mo's pupils dilate. Hearing Gu Yan's words, his eyes became darker and darker until Gu Yan said "I like you." Yan tightened his grip.

"So, I can't bear the fact that the person I like has another person in his heart. As much as I like you, I care as much. These are not things that can be smoothed away by your words." After he finished speaking, he tried to He broke free of his hand from Jian Mo's, but Jian Mo held it even tighter, which gave him the illusion that his bones were wrong.He frowned, looked at the steaming noodles that had only eaten two mouthfuls, and smiled suddenly.

"Jian Mo, you can't be so greedy. I have one in my heart, and I hold another by my side. I am also a man, and I also have thoughts of monopolizing you. So, let me go, Jian Mo." Suddenly it became red like this, and large pieces of broken hair covered his eyes.

Jian Mo's heart suddenly seemed to be pinched by someone, and he couldn't even breathe smoothly.how so?He asked himself, but the answer was on the other side of the fog, isn't it obvious that they are about to reconcile?Isn't it obvious that he will have this person soon, no, can we be together well... This kind of ups and downs almost makes him fall down.

He tried his best not to panic, not to just admit defeat like this, he tried his best to recall every word Gu Yan said, crushed and chewed them, and then rearranged them in his mind.How could he let him go?How could he let him go!

He forcefully pulled the person in front of him into his arms, his body was still trembling, how could he save him?He wanted to hit his head against the wall, so as to come up with an answer that gave the best of both worlds, but in the end he could only hug Gu Yan tremblingly.

"I... love you." He heard the words out of his already tight throat, and there was no more sound after that.

The body in his arms trembled, and then he felt that his shirt was gradually getting wet. The young man in his arms seemed to be venting something, and his shirt was gradually soaked.He felt his cheeks were icy and cold, and when he raised his hand to touch it, it was already full of tears just like the young man.

Why is there such a twist and turn between them?He hugged Gu Yan in his arms, ignoring the discomfort from his legs, and found a comfortable position for Gu Yan to lean against him. The two of them didn't speak for a moment, and only gradually calmed down. A sniffling sound came down.

Gu Yan managed to raise his eyes, but he already looked like a red-eyed rabbit.He seemed to want to continue hugging the person in front of him, but he put it down anyway, raised his hand to wipe his eyes, put down Jian Mo's hand on his waist, and came out of the small wheelchair.

"I'm sorry..." His voice was still hoarse because of his actions just now, but it didn't hinder Jian Mo's nerves at all.Jian Mo felt that he was like a taut string that was about to break at any moment. He had never been as nervous as today.

"I know you still can't believe me, but I can wait." He hastily interrupted Gu Yan's next words.Gu Yan blinked, looking at Jian Mo who put his posture on the ground, even buried in the soil, he couldn't believe it.

"We still have a lot of time, and a lot of opportunities, and I'll try to let you know.....I'm telling the truth. Since the last time, I won't lie to you again, I said it. I In the past, my feelings were spent in the pursuit of impossible people. It is almost the normal state of my life, Xiaoqian, and it is almost the same thing as eating and drinking. Until I met you. "Jian Mo's voice sounded slowly, and he raised his eyes to look at Gu Yan with a slight trembling and humbleness.Gu Yan had never heard such words from Jian Mo's mouth before, and he was shocked for a while.

"I'm very happy when I'm with you. Most of the time, I think it's just like this. Let's go on like this. You're right, I'm very greedy." He put his hand on the handle of the wheelchair unconsciously, Then squeeze it hard until it turns white.

"I still like Xiaoqian in my heart. I watched him being helpless because of the pain of other men, but I couldn't help accepting you, and then put Xiaoqian in the first place..." This is difficult to say, For an instant, the two of them felt that the pressure of the air had increased, and their hearts were suppressed.

"Gu Yan," Jian Mo pushed the wheelchair in front of him at some unknown time, "But that was all in the past, and now I don't know if you still believe it, but now, I only have you in my heart." He put Gu Yan's hand on his heart, allowing Gu Yan to feel the beating of his heart.

With some caution and hope, he spoke the next words.

"Let's make up."

He wanted to say this sentence for too long, and thought it would be difficult to say it, but probably because he thought about it for too long, it slipped out of his mouth all at once.

Gu Yan looked dumbfounded. He didn't wait for his answer, but instead left behind him running away in a hurry. This made Jian Mo a little confused, and then he heard a loud cry from Gu Yan :

"Fang Hui!!! Quickly save me!" Jian Mo, who had a loud voice, could hear clearly even if he was far away.

Before he knew what to do next, there was a knock on the door.He stepped forward to open the door, but it was the girl he had seen last time, raised his eyebrows, and he let the girl into the room.

"I just want to ask you a question, are you sincere to Gu Yan?" The girl was straightforward, but he didn't feel disgusted, on the contrary, he was very happy that Gu Yan had such a friend.

He took the girl to the sofa and sat down, made her some tea, and then sat down in front of her, corrected his posture, and answered the girl in a very serious and sincere manner.

"I love him, very much. So I will wait for him." He didn't want the girl to believe him just because of this sentence, but he was already ready to wait for Gu Yan.He didn't expect that the girl across from him would turn red all of a sudden, and leave after saying yes.

He looked at the girl's back, and suddenly he really didn't know what was going on.

But never mind, he thought.Recalling the way Gu Yan fled in a hurry, looking at the closed door and the silent room, he suddenly felt very lonely.

The author has something to say: continue to apologize...

In fact, I have been writing recently, but I stop and write, and it always takes a long time to write something.

I don’t know if writing an article will be linked to my mood. I think, I should not be a person who can be brought in immediately, nor a good author.

So I can't figure it out.

Recently, I can't figure out how to continue. I feel that the front is procrastinating, so I want to make a change.

But I never thought of Jian Mo and Gu Yan...

Why.Take a deep breath.