Feeding equation

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The idea of ​​spending a few more days of leisure at He Sang's house was completely annihilated during the confrontation with Guangguang.

To be honest, I can't be regarded as a person who pays much attention to the outside world's ideas, otherwise I would have committed suicide under the venomous eyes of the Red Gang.But I admit that the eyes of others are sometimes an invisible knife. Whether you care about it or not, sometimes it can kill people invisible.

But I think Guang Guang's gaze is not a knife, at best it can barely be counted as a stab.But even a thorn, if it grows in the wrong place, is likely to cause trouble to people.And now, I am very troubled by it.

"Ah, brother Xi, you're the one who got fucked!" After I said "I'm the one who got raped" as if my brain had been kicked by a donkey, I saw Guang Guang's disappointed expression, "I almost thought you were the one who got fucked." Super Invincible Emperor Attack!"

Of course, I don't think I have the temperament of an "emperor", but Guangguang's metaphor is really uncomfortable enough.

I said I don't like men, so I can't be gay anyway.As for attacking and receiving, no matter how you look at it, it has nothing to do with me.

I know that Guangguang definitely doesn't give up, just like now, he is carefully testing me with his eyes, while still holding on to the hem of my clothes tightly.

"Brother Xi, can't you become a Gong? I don't like to suffer!" He said angrily, his handsome brows were about to twist into twists.

I really can't stand him looking at me like this, as if I'm really a man who likes men.So he stretched out his hand and pushed him out of the door, thinking that it seemed that it was time to return to his home.

……

Lying on the big bed at home, when I opened my eyes, the color of the sky had turned into pitch black.

I just took a short nap when I came back in the afternoon, but I didn't expect this sleep to be so long.

Outside the window at this moment, there was a steady drizzle of rain.It was clear during the day, but now it looks sad.

I frowned, feeling inexplicably depressed.

In fact, if it was on a weekday, I should probably appear in the Xingxuan Club during this time period.Compared to He Sang'an, who has been busy reconciling accounts for the past two days, I, the honorary boss, really have a bit too much leisure.

But fortunately, everyone in Xingxing knows that I am useless as the boss. They never place their hopes on me. I don't know whether this is their advantage or what.

He stared at the ceiling in a daze for a long time, until he was a little hungry before he was willing to sit up.During this period of time, my mind was full of chaos, and there were always some messy things clamoring.Crazy, not crazy all together.But when you really have nothing to do with it, you find yourself very powerless.

After rummaging in the kitchen for a long time, I finally found some boxes of instant noodles that had not expired. When I tore open the package, I found that the water was cut off at home.Originally, I thought that I would pass through the hunger, but my stomach, which has not eaten well from morning to night, has been tirelessly contradicting me.

After changing clothes and shoes, I went to the 24-hour convenience store downstairs to buy things under an umbrella.In the night of continuous autumn rain, even the air is bleak and chilling.

During this time, I refused to communicate with anyone or the outside world.It seemed that he didn't want to understand anything, but he also understood a very simple and easy-to-understand truth.That is: what is not yours is not yours, do not force anything.Of course, even if you force it, it won't be yours.

With such a mood, I went all the way back to the house, found out the phone that I had stranded in my coat pocket, and when I turned on the phone, I had a feeling that I was finally going out.

Men can be cowardly for a while, but they can't be cowardly forever. I feel that I am finally willing to face the reality and no longer avoid it.

To hell with reality!

I hear my soul singing and my flesh clapping.

Not long after the startup animation flickered, the ringtones of incoming call reminders bombarded me again and again.However, it has only been more than ten days without showing up, and there are more than 200 extra calls on my mobile phone.

I don't think I am a person with a strong sense of presence. I always think that my sense of existence is so low that no one will find out even if I disappear for a few years.So when I saw Erbaidong's missed calls, I actually had the illusion of "Is this my phone?", and even couldn't wait to open the communication records to check, wondering who "never forgets" me like this "Perseverance".

But who knew that before I turned to the page of communication records, the phone rang crazily as if I had lost my mind.I was so taken aback that I couldn't help but sincerely regret that I had set this loud song as my ringtone.

However, this kind of regret has not had time to sigh in the future, but the name that suddenly appeared on the screen of the mobile phone made me feel sad for a while.

Warin...

There was a moment of daze.This name that is so familiar that it can no longer be familiar makes the blood in my chest churn.

I am not a person who holds grudges very much, and I will definitely not be a person who is generous enough to let go of past suspicions.So when I saw Hua Lin calling me, I was actually conflicted in my heart.

At night, the damp wind with rain comes in through the half-opened window and pulls up the brown-red curtains. The air is mixed with the aroma of my newly bought lunch box, which makes the swirling wind suddenly bring a little familiar human touch. , I felt an inexplicable disturbance in my heart.

Counting the days, the child has been born for half a month.If Hua Lin hadn't told me that day that I was not the biological father of the child, maybe I should be happily enjoying the family happiness now.

But sometimes the reality is that the more you want life to go east, the more it will go west.No matter how bad it is, it will even run to the southeast, southwest, northwest, northeast...

So my ending was nothing more than the opposite. This trajectory is very straightforward, and maybe I should be grateful for it.

The corners of my mouth were bent in self-deprecating, looking at the flickering light of the phone screen in my palm.Until the light completely faded, the phone was disconnected, and I didn't have the courage to answer it.

I thought that Hua Lin would stop calling, but soon, when I was in a daze, the second phone rang again.

I don't know why Hua Lin is looking for me now, but I remember that day we made it very clear to each other.We broke up, and since then she has gone her way, and I have gone my way.But now she comes to disturb my life again. Is she trying to show me that she and her child are fine, and that she is fine with the man she cheated on? !

hateful!

I murmured, feeling a sharp pain in my heart.

Until the third phone rang, I finally answered the phone a little too much.Of course, there is still a little luck in my heart at this time, and I am even imagining whether Hua Lin has changed his mind.However, the crying from the phone was like a basin of cold water in a world of ice and snow, which immediately soaked my whole body.

"Hai Xi, you call Wu Si and ask him to come to the central building to find me in 10 minutes! Otherwise, I will hold the child and fall from the top floor of the building!" The sound of the wind was even mixed with the cry of a child.

Although I don't know what happened to Hua Lin, but the moment I heard her speak, I was really anxious.

"Hua Lin, what's wrong with you?! Don't be impulsive, just say something!" I was like an ant on a hot pot. When I heard that Hua Lin was going to jump off the building with the child in my arms, my whole nerves tensed up.

Hua Lin over there heard my comfort and cried even louder.

"I can't talk properly! If Wu Si doesn't come today, I will really jump down with the baby in my arms!" Her voice was desperate, trembling, as if she was extremely depressed, "Call Wu Si now, Hit me!" She kept urging, even swearing because of my chaotic comfort.

"X's Haixi, you fucking call Wu Si quickly! Hurry up!"

Maybe people will lose control when they are extremely angry. I have never seen such an abnormal side of Hua Lin.But she kept saying that she wanted to find Wu Si, and I still didn't understand, until she laughed wildly and told me that the child was Wu Si...

"If Wu Si doesn't come, I'll kill his child and then kill myself!" She yelled frantically, in the space with the sound of rain, the sound was like a sharp blade hidden in the wind.I felt like I was hurt by this sharp blade, and my whole body was covered in blood.

Child... Wuji...

Samurai... child...

Samurai's child...

Haha, this is ridiculous!

I felt my body trembling, but my expression was frozen as if frozen.

"That child belongs to Wu Si?" I opened my eyes wide in disbelief.In that second, I felt betrayed by the whole world.

Without further confirmation from Hua Lin, she was still crying out of control.When I asked her why she didn't contact Wu Si directly, she finally calmed down, but what followed was even more crazily cursing than before.

"Haixi, are you pretending to be stupid? Why did Wu Si treat me like this? Don't you understand?!" I heard Hua Lin's grin, like a crazy devil. "He doesn't answer my calls and doesn't care about his children. Who do you think is because of it?!"

He said again: "Hai Xi, why don't you die! If you died, maybe I wouldn't be where I am today!"

I suddenly feel very cold.The body is connected with the heart.

I don't understand why Hua Lin yelled at me like this all of a sudden, although my position is also very innocent, but she said this as if I was the big villain in all these things.

But how could I be a villain?My woman fell in love with someone else, even got pregnant with someone else's child, and I didn't even know when they got involved.I am a fool, watching my woman indulge in the love given by others, cry for others, and give birth to children for others.People like me are obviously kind to a bit too much!

And that "other" lived up to expectations...

He turned out to be... Wu Si!

Such a ridiculous feeling...

I regret that when Hua Lin told me that the child in her womb was not mine, I didn't ask who the father of the child was.If I hadn't escaped from the very beginning and faced reality positively, maybe I wouldn't have the illusion that I was being played around in the dark by everyone.

And Wuji...

I silently clenched my lower lip until the sweet smell of blood filled my mouth, then I slowly let go...

"I'll call him..." I heard my own voice that seemed to be dripping blood.

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