Sugar Blueberries

Chapter 37 You Will Always Be Disappointed

Si Ke hadn't recovered from the fright of the black shadow just now, she yelled: "Ah! Ah—" Instinctively, she took a step back and leaned against the wall.

Just listen to "嗙"!Lu Xingchuan, who was surprised, reacted first, and ran towards Si Ke suddenly. The suitcase behind him was too full, and after losing his support, he fell to the ground and made a sound.

At the same time, he seemed to have no memory of the suit on his arm that matched his trousers, allowing it to fall freely to the ground.

The flight landed at Beijing Capital Airport at [-] o'clock, and it was nearly ten o'clock after he picked up his luggage and took a taxi. Lu Xingchuan really didn't want to take another hour and a half by car to Yazhu Garden, so he took a taxi to Fangting Community.

He remembered that his uncle said that the house had been renovated, and he was asked to move there directly when he returned to China, and it would be more convenient for him to work in the city.So he found the key that had not been used for many years from his bag, and opened the door.

After entering the room and closing the door, he found that the bathroom room was lit. At this second, he suddenly heard someone ask: "Who?" Then there was a continuous scream from fear.Lu Xingchuan hastily turned on the light.

He saw that the person in front of him was Si Ke.

He didn't have time to think about why Si Ke appeared in this house. Seeing her terrified appearance, he was obviously frightened, so he rushed to Si Ke and hugged her.

Lu Xingchuan held Si Ke in his arms and rescued him from the wall.At this moment, his heart was twisted together, and he didn't know what kind of mood it was.He even felt that his whole body was out of control.He reached out and stroked her trembling hand on her back, patted it hard, and landed on her petrified nightdress, comforting: "Ke Ke, it's Brother Lu, it's Brother Lu who's back. Ke Ke, don't Be afraid, don't be afraid..."

The sudden fright caused Si Ke to become overly nervous. She was trembling all over, and it took her a while to realize that this person was actually Lu Xingchuan whom she hadn't seen in three years!

She let go of her arms and moved, trying to see clearly.

She raised her head and looked at this very familiar yet so strange person with puzzled eyes.Sword eyebrows and star eyes, high nose and cold lips, it's him.But why does it look like a completely changed person?

It seems to be thinner.It seems to be more mature.It seems strange.

Suddenly, she felt warmth on her cheeks, and Si Ke realized that she was crying.Was it scared to cry by the shadow?Or was it scared to cry by Lu Xingchuan?She turned back and retreated to the sofa on the other side of the living room, crying silently while saying in an uncertain tone: "Lu, Lu Xingchuan..."

Seeing Si Ke looking at him with such strange eyes, Lu Xingchuan felt fear in his heart, Si Ke took a step back, he took a step closer, and the two moved to the edge of the sofa step by step.

Si Ke shook his head, frowned tightly, and cried out, "Who are you?"

"Ke Ke, I'm Brother Lu."

"Liar! Liar! You are a liar!" Si Ke finally woke up from the darkness. This person was Lu Xingchuan.

He is back.

Her crying was heartbreaking, Lu Xingchuan didn't know what to do, hugged her and sat on the sofa.Si Ke struggled to escape, but she was no match for Lu Xingchuan in strength, so she was tightly trapped in his arms.

She struggled hard and hit him hard.He just hugged her, didn't let her leave his side, let her fight.

Si Ke's outstretched palm hit Lu Xingchuan firmly on the chest.Until the shirt was wrinkled, she felt weak and tired.

She rested her chin on his shoulder and relaxed her whole body. She was tired and didn't want to stop struggling.I don't think about right or wrong, I just want to let myself cry for a while.

The whimpering sound became the only sound in the quiet room, but the tears were indeed shed by two people.Si Ke was crying hysterically, while Lu Xingchuan's tears were silent but pouring down.

The last time Si Ke cried like a dog was when he broke up with Lu Xingchuan.

The day Lu Xingchuan left Beijing was September 9, and he had agreed to return to China in July of the following year.But in July, Lu Xingchuan said that his professor Albert was going to take him to a very famous car company to study a new model, and he couldn't come back for the time being, and it should be around the end of the year at the latest.

On July 7, Si Ke still went to the Capital Airport and sat in the coffee shop of Terminal T31 for a whole day.Knowing that he would not come back, she still went.

She sent Lu Xingchuan a WeChat message, which was what Si Ke said to him on the day they said goodbye, [Just ten months, July, if you don't come back, I don't want you anymore. 】

Si Ke threw the coffee in his hand into the trash can, turned on the phone, and wrote another sentence: [August is here. ] Then, she turned and got into a taxi.

At that time, she didn't delete Lu Xingchuan, nor blocked him.Disappointment is inevitable, but people like Lu Xingchuan are keen on academic research, she has always known.Otherwise, he would not have been single until the age of 24.When Si Ke said "don't want him", she somewhat wanted Lu Xingchuan to coax her.

Before Si Ke got home in the taxi, Lu Xingchuan made a voice call. Although he was unhappy, Si Ke answered it.

She had to admit that she had no resistance against Lu Xingchuan, as soon as she sipped that lemon bubble water voice, she knew she had lost.

Especially with such a voice, talking about love, even if it is thousands of miles away, people can't help but miss, believe, and go through fire and water for love.

But Si Ke knew that he couldn't forgive him too easily, men were all pushy, so she deliberately left him cold.For example, at the beginning, she only answered one of the five voice calls, but she persisted for a week, and she couldn't take it anymore. After all, in the past, she wished she could share all the [-] words a woman should say a day on WeChat with Lu Xingchuan. After speaking, listen to Lu Xingchuan share some of his views with her.Although the two often talk about each other, they are willing to share their current situation with each other, and they are willing to share it.

The magic of love, probably so.Under the secretion of dopamine, all unreasonable things will be taken for granted, all the nonsense in the past letters will become rainbow farts, and all the bitterness of waiting will turn into fruit candy the moment he speaks.

But Lu Xingchuan was busy with new projects, and gradually lost contact.

This slight indifference lasted for a few months. If what happened later, maybe the long-distance relationship between the two of them would have lasted a little longer.

Just when such a moderate emotional lull reached a certain balance, Si Jianguo had a car accident.

The former carefree little girl finally found out about Si Jianguo's investment failure when she saw her father in the hospital.

It was a warm and sunny day in winter. The sun shone on the concrete steps outside the emergency building of the hospital, and it didn't look cold at all.

Si Ke sat on the stairs blankly, looking at the busy street outside the hospital wall, his mind was completely empty.

What should she be thinking?What should be done?

She just felt helpless, so helpless, she didn't know how to proceed.

For the first time in several months, she took the initiative to call Lu Xingchuan.In the past, he was the one who called to let her know that Brother Lu missed Ke Ke.

At this time, she really needs to find someone to chat with, comfort her, and tell her that everything will be fine.

Dad's surgery will be successful and he will be healthy.

The business of the clinic will be on the right track and will not be affected by investment events.

The loan owed to the bank is because Dad misremembered the number, and they can pay it off after a while.

But the phone went through.There was indeed—no one answered.

For the first time, Si Ke really felt what a person's helplessness looks like.

In WeChat, the dialogue between Si Ke and Lu Xingchuan.

Si Ke:

[Brother Lu, just talk to me, okay? 】

[My dad had a car accident and is in the operating room.I do not know what to do. 】

【I am really scared……】

【If only you were here...】

[Can you talk to me? 】

【Hearing your voice, maybe I will become braver? 】

[What's going on, the sun is shining brightly, but I feel so cold. 】

【are you there? 】

【Justify me, okay? 】

【I really need you. 】

【Brother Lu...】

She sat on the steps in front of the hospital and waited for three hours without any reply.It wasn't until she sneezed from the cold that she realized a problem-if you give your bravery and energy to others, you will always be disappointed.

When the little girl on the steps of the emergency building stood up, she saw a girl and a man standing behind her.It was Wang Mengmeng and Nian Sixian who rushed to the hospital.

Wang Mengmeng opened her arms to her, "Do you want to come over and give me a hug?"

Nian Sixian rubbed Si Ke's head: "With brother here, you are so depressed! Don't be afraid of anything."

A knowing smile appeared on Si Ke's desperate face, "Go to hell with love, you can't see it, touch it, and use it." At that moment, she decided to let go of this relationship that seemed to have never started, and try her best to welcome it. A life that belongs to adults.

That kind of life is full of sweet and burdensome responsibilities, and it requires her to have the enthusiasm to continue to be positive and work hard to live a life.

Si Ke began to be exhausted and busy, going back and forth between school, home, and hospital every day until the Chinese New Year.

What she said was very free and easy, but it was difficult to get out of that mood.

After all, Lu Xingchuan was the first boy she fell in love with when she grew up. This was her first love.

She gave herself a whole winter to digest and grow.During this period, Lu Xingchuan was not blocked, but his phone calls, audio, video, WeChat, and text messages were never answered or ignored.

Until another year when spring came in March, Si Ke called Lu Xingchuan.

Lu Xingchuan: "Finally, you've paid attention to me. I'm already packing my luggage, and I'll be back in a few days. Keke, I'll go back and explain to you face to face, okay? I'll go back and stay with you, okay?"

"Lu Xingchuan, let's break up." Si Ke's tone was calm, this was her decision after several months of calmness and deliberation.

"When we were together, you promised me. If you stay with me, you will never be separated again." Lu Xingchuan on the other end of the phone, that Lu Xingchuan who was as indifferent as an iceberg, actually cried.

"I regret it. I don't want you anymore." Si Ke hung up the phone.

She blocked Lu Xingchuan's WeChat and mobile phone, and cleared everything that could cut off the contact between the two of them.

A blink of an eye.

It's been 15 months since their split.

Whether it is long or not, it is just a spring, summer, autumn and winter in the blink of an eye.To put it short, in these 14 months, Si Ke graduated from university, found a job, and started earning money to support his family. She is no longer the girl who only knows to giggle every day.

"Ke Ke don't cry, Brother Lu is back to look for you." Lu Xingchuan's words pulled Si Ke out of his memories.

She found herself crying for a long time, lying in Lu Xingchuan's arms like this.Vent all the grievances and helplessness of the past three years in this cry.

It turns out that many grievances can't come out at that time, but they can be accumulated.

Taking advantage of this day's fright, Si Ke seemed to vent all her negative energy. She just cried and cried. I don't know how long she cried. The back of Lu Xingchuan's light blue shirt was wet up.

In the past, I also cried and acted like a baby in Lu Xingchuan's arms, right?Although those memories are extremely short, Ke Si Ke suddenly feels relieved to relive old dreams.

After an unknown amount of time, she finally had enough crying, the tears stopped flowing, and she was still sobbing and panting.Lu Xingchuan's hand on her back also loosened.

"Hmm..." Si Ke was about to open his eyes when he felt something soft stick to his lips.

It was Lu Xingchuan's kiss.

The author says:

Chuangou can do it, he is starting to look like a man (dog)!