please let go

Chapter 72

While waiting for the admission notice to come out, the two made an appointment to play, but accidentally bumped into Li Yuxiu and Tang Miao.

Jiang Chen was a little strange: "Why did my mother and your mother walk together?"

Before He Chuan could answer, the two women saw them. Li Yuxiu ran over and opened her eyes wide, "He Chuan, why are you walking with him? Didn't I tell you to stay away from him?"

He Chuan: "Mom, I..."

"Sister, don't involve the child in the matter between us." Tang Miao, who rushed forward, wanted to pull Li Yuxiu, but was pulled away, and almost lost her footing.

Jiang Chen hurriedly stepped forward to support Tang Miao, "What's going on?" He clearly felt that the relationship between the two women was extremely bad.

Li Yuxiu said in a sarcastic tone, "How do you know? Do you think your mother will let you know that she is a mistress?"

He Chuan went to pull Li Yuxiu, "Mom!"

Tang Miao blushed, her lower lip was bitten so bloodless, if it wasn't for Jiang Chen's support, she might fall to the ground in the next second.

"Don't let people talk about it!" Li Yuxiu ignored He Chuan's pulling, and just wanted to open her mouth to curse.

"Mom!" He Chuan yelled, and then lowered his volume, "I'll tell him..."

Jiang Chen was taken aside by He Chuan.

"Do you know why my parents divorced?" He Chuan paused, "Because your mother became the third party."

"Impossible!" Jiang Chen opened his eyes wide, and blurted out to refute, "How could my mother be that kind of person!"

"Jiang Chen, it's true, your mother cheated on you and spent a while with my father..."

"Impossible! I don't believe it!" Jiang Chen asked again: "How long have you known?"

"When I learned that your mother's name is Tang Miao..."

Jiang Chen suddenly discovered the details he missed, that's why his mother asked him for He Chuan's fucking name and phone number, that's why He Chuan stood on the balcony and smoked all night, and that's why Li Yuxiu showed him that disgusted look...

Jiang Chen's mood became complicated, "Why didn't you tell me?"

"What should I tell you?"

"Then now..." Jiang Chen looked at the two women not far away, "What should I do?"

"Let's go home first." He Chuan said and walked towards Li Yuxiu.

A trace of fear rose in Jiang Chen's heart, and he hurriedly called out, "He Chuan!"

He Chuan turned around with a very ugly expression on his face.

"We're… going to be together forever, right?"

"Yes..." He Chuan pulled Li Yuxiu away without looking back.

Jiang Chen smiled wryly.

How to do?

He didn't get a positive answer this time.

There was silence all the way home. When he entered the house, he asked first: "Mom, don't you have anything to say?"

"You've graduated, let's move back..." Tang Miao sat down on the sofa, her long hair completely covered her face, but it still couldn't hide her sadness.

"That's not what I want to know." Jiang Chen shook his head.

"Stop being friends with He Chuan."

"Mom, I can't do it..." Jiang Chen shook his head a few more times.

The door was opened, and Jiang Yiming was stunned seeing the situation, "What are you doing?"

Jiang Chen looked at the man at the door and asked, "Does he know too?"

Tang Miao lowered her head lowered, "Your father knows, forgive me."

The family of three sat on the sofa in silence for nearly an hour, and it was Jiang Yiming who spoke first: "Your mother made a mistake...but the past is in the past."

This is a shame for a man, but Jiang Yiming put it lightly. If it weren't for the usual things, Jiang Chen really thought that Jiang Yiming didn't love Tang Miao.

"I also regret letting you live in school, so I won't run into He Chuan." Jiang Yiming sighed, "You have already graduated, so stop having any contact with that child..."

"I can't..." Jiang Chen bowed his head, fiddled with the two beads on his wrist, finally waited until graduation, and was able to wear the bracelet openly, and now someone asked him to take it off...

He repeated: "I really can't..."

Jiang Yiming was puzzled: "What can't be done? How deep can a one-year friendship be? You and Chen Yunkai have a good relationship, and I can understand if it can't be broken."

Tang Miao also followed suit: "Chenchen, you also know the situation, can you..."

Jiang Chen interrupted her: "Mom, I'm dating him..."

The air pressure in the room was lower than before, and the couple seemed to think they were hallucinating.Tang Miao raised her head, her fair face was cracked like jade falling on the ground, "You, what are you talking about?"

"It's a boyfriend..." Jiang Chen tightly held the two beads, fearing that he would lose them in the next second.

Jiang Yiming still couldn't accept it, and asked again: "He Chuan?"

"Yes." Jiang Chen raised his arm and showed them the chain on his hand, "I like He Chuan."

"Jiang Chen...you..." The tears on Tang Miao's face were still wet, and the eyes began to pool again.

"Fuck your mother! What kind of love do you guys have with men?!" Jiang Yiming was so angry that he cursed, pointing at Jiang Chen with his index finger.

It was the first time Jiang Chen saw that Jiang Yiming was so angry, but persistence was better than timidity, so he began to ask: "Why can't men fall in love with men?"

Jiang Yiming roared: "Is that legal!"

Jiang Chen raised his head to face him, and asked back, "Is it against the law?"

"You, you!" Jiang Yiming was so angry that he strode forward and grabbed Jiang Chen's wrist.

Jiang Chen was unyielding, no matter how hard he pulled, he would not let go. In the end, fearing that the bracelet would be broken, he knelt down on the ground in the direction of the force. When he looked up, he saw Jiang Yiming raised his palm, "Dad!!"

The brain flashed for a moment...

So fast it's almost invisible...

But the scene seems familiar——

Jiang Chen was still kneeling on the ground, bent down and pressed his head, fear and panic wrapped around his heart, memories were like tenacious silk strangling him out of breath.

"Jiang Yiming! Don't force him! Do you still want him to lose his memory again!!" Tang Miao rushed forward to help Jiang Chen, looking at him worriedly, "What's the matter?"

"Amnesia?" Jiang Chen desperately tried to remember something, but out of instinctive resistance, he was only impressed by the scene just now, and his voice trembled uncomfortably, "How many things are you hiding from me?"

"Chenchen...you get up first..."

Jiang Chen finally knew the ins and outs this time.

Seven years ago, the family was eating out. Li Yuxiu found them and had an argument in public.The couple had a big quarrel at home because of this incident. During the argument, Jiang Yiming accidentally hit Jiang Chen.

Jiang Chen fell into a coma on the spot, and after waking up, he no longer had that memory. He didn't know the reason for the fight, and subconsciously felt that it was Jiang Yiming's fault. Since then, he has resisted his father's contact.

The unbearableness of the past is all revealed, and the innocent person not only forgives all sins, but also bears all the pain that does not belong to him.

Jiang Chen hasn't called the word "Dad" for a long time.

That sound just now was the first time in seven years...

Jiang Yiming did nothing wrong, he loved his wife as always, even though he was treated indifferently by his own son for many years, he never complained.

Jiang Chen looked up and saw the sad face of the man in his 40s, he sincerely apologized and said, "I'm sorry..."

Tang Miao shook her head and cried, "No, you are right, it was me who was wrong..."

Jiang Yiming still held Tang Miao's shoulders, and comforted him softly: "It's all over..." He sighed, "Jiang Chen, break off with that child..."

"I..." Jiang Chen shook his head, "How is it possible..."

"You don't understand these things at a young age. If you continue to make mistakes, you will definitely regret it in the future."

"I'll regret it if I'm not with him."

"He's a man!" Jiang Yiming became emotional again.

"I like him!!" Jiang Chen's voice calmed the two of them. He looked at the stunned parents, he couldn't help but feel a little guilty, but he couldn't let go of the person in his heart, "I never thought of being with a man before. he…"

Jiang Chen kept drawing the words on the beads with his fingers, restraining his sobs: "After meeting him, I thought, I really want to be with him..."

Jiang Yiming: "Jiang Chen, even if we agree, do you think Li Yuxiu will agree?"

A wake-up call.

As Jiang Yiming said, the difficulty is not limited to this level.

For the next seven days, Jiang Chen couldn't get in touch with He Chuan, he didn't respond to messages, and his phone was turned off. During this period, he also contacted He Yi, but He Yi didn't reply to him.

The family was busy moving, and after moving back to the city center, Jiang Chen asked Chen Yunkai, and learned that He Chuan's mother had acute enteritis and was hospitalized for another three days.

Then why no audio for seven days?

On the night of the eighth day, Jiang Chen received a breakup message from He Chuan.

[He Chuan]: I'm sorry, let's break up.

[Jiang Chen]: Let's meet and talk.

[He Chuan]: Goodbye.

Jiang Chen called him, "He Chuan..."

The voice on the other side was surprisingly cold, "Jiang Chen, if you call again, I will block you."

"He Chuan, can you not mention the breakup? My parents' side... your mother's side... let's discuss it, okay?" Jiang Chen went to check his phone and found that the phone had been hung up long ago.

The call log shows that the time lasted only 7 seconds.

Jiang Chen went to look for He Yi, and finally got the address. As soon as he walked out of the room, his mother stopped him and asked where he was going.

"I'm going out to relax."

Jiang Chen hailed a car, and two hours later the car stopped on an empty concrete floor. The driver said that the car couldn't drive in because there was a small road ahead.

He had to pay to get out of the car and turn on the lighting function of his mobile phone, only to find that this is where they watched the fireworks during the Chinese New Year.

The car drove away, and he stood alone on the empty concrete floor, but the temperature in August made one's heart terribly cold.

There are no lights on the roads in the country, so he leans on this beam of light and goes from house to house to check the house numbers.

There is a long section of the road that is deserted, with fields on the left and mountains and forests on the right, with birds flying out from time to time.

Jiang Chen was terribly afraid. He always felt that there would be something unclean following him. He looked around, hoping to find a house, but he didn't find a house after walking for more than ten minutes. He began to suspect that he had made a mistake. Looking back again, the road when I looked around was terribly dark.

He was the only light source on the entire mountain road, so he had no choice but to bite the bullet and continue walking.

The field in summer was full of noise, except for the sound of frogs, no sound of insects or animals could be distinguished. From time to time, mosquitoes and moths pounced on his face.

Jiang Chen was most afraid of bugs, so he slapped his face several times in fright.When he successfully arrived at his destination, he had already been bitten countless times by mosquitoes.

Calling He Chuan, a tired voice came from the phone: "Stop calling."

Jiang Chen kept his voice steady: "I'm downstairs at your house, open the door."

The phone was hung up, and the door opened the next second, and He Chuan turned on the light at the door.

He was still wearing a white T-shirt, but he hadn't seen him for a week. He seemed to have lost a lot of weight, and his collarbone became more obvious. The dim light made him look like a flower in a swamp, beautiful and depraved.

"My mother is asleep." He Chuan closed the door, "What are you doing here?"

"He Chuan, I..."

"What do you want?"

"I don't want to break up."

He Chuan took a deep breath, followed by an obvious heaving of his chest: "I was wrong."

Jiang Chen was taken aback, "You are right, where did you go wrong?"

"Maybe I shouldn't provoke you, I shouldn't..."

"Fuck you! I provoked you first!"

"I said a long time ago that we are not the same way."

"It's this sentence again, He Chuan, other than this sentence, what else would you say?"

"Jiang Chen, let's all be sensible... You don't want to make Tang Miao sad, and I don't want to make my mother sad."

"So it makes you and me sad?"

"Jiang Chen, don't force it."

"Where is coercion? We are all willing. He Chuan, if you have the ability, tell me that you have never liked me in your life and have been playing with me."

"I…"

Jiang Chen went to hold his hand, "I know my mother...but there must be a solution, right?"

He Chuan threw his hand away directly, "Solve it? How to solve it? Let your mother have a few years of hard life? Let your mother be ridiculed for seven years? Make your mother busy all day, too expensive for eight dollars , reluctant to have a meal outside? Let your mother skip meals to save money and get stomach problems? Let your mother get enteritis and dare not go to the hospital for medical treatment because of lack of money? Let your mother's fingers often get bruised from being smashed by goods ?Does it make your mother unwilling to buy yourself a nicer dress for three years? Or makes your mother cry secretly at night? Or makes your mother dare not walk out of the house with a smile during the Chinese New Year? No, you can’t. "

Jiang Chen heard He Chuan's long series of pressing questions, and before he had time to think, he could only say in a daze: "I can't, I can't..." He suddenly shouted: "Then it's my fucking fault! I will bear it!" "Their grievances! Why! Let us bear it!!!"

He Chuan remained indifferent to Jiang Chen who was a bit mad, and lowered his eyes, "I'm already very unfilial, I spent time with my enemy's son..."

"He Chuan!" Jiang Chen said, grabbed He Chuan's collar, clenched his hands into fists, and raised his arms, but he couldn't let go.

"We've been together..." He lost his mind a little, put down his punching arm, and grabbed He Chuan's collar again after he reacted: "What do you mean..."

Jiang Chen stared at He Chuan, trying to find a trace of the lie from the indifferent expression, but there was no trace of emotion.

"Speak!" Jiang Chen tugged on his collar tightly, "I'll fucking let you talk!!!"

He Chuan turned his head and didn't want to look at him, he opened and closed his mouth and spit out a sentence that Jiang Chen didn't want to hear in his life.

"Jiang Chen, we broke up."

"Say it again..." Jiang Chen suddenly lost his strength, loosened He Chuan's lapel, and repeated, "I'll let you say it again."

The simple seven words came out of Jiang Chen's mouth, and he didn't expect to be able to tremble like that.

"I said, we broke up."

"Then I don't agree..." For the first time in 17 years, he experienced real heartache. In comparison, the pain that the note brought to him was like a small thorn scratching him. Now What he felt was real pain.

"Jiang Chen!! How old are you?! You never need the other party's consent to break up. If it's inappropriate, it's inappropriate. It's wrong for us to be together!!"

"Wrong? Then tell me, where did we go wrong? If it's wrong, why did you say you like me! Why do you want to be with me! Tell me!!" Jiang Chen grabbed He Chuan's jaw, letting him and himself Looking at each other, what he saw was a pair of emotionless eyes, "Who's mother hugged me before and begged me not to leave?"

"I said, can I go back on my word?" He Chuan grabbed Jiang Chen's wrist, "Now I beg you to go."

Jiang Chen tried his best to control his sobs, leaned his forehead on He Chuan's shoulder, took several deep breaths, but couldn't dispel the emotion in his chest, "He Chuan, I beg you, I beg you..."

"I've never loved someone so much in my life..."

"I really...I want to give you everything..."

"I beg you, don't break up with me."

"OK?"

He didn't hear any soft-hearted words from He Chuan, and what he got was a series of questioning.

"Jiang Chen, are you gay? You are not. Do you dare to admit that you like me in front of everyone? You dare not. You call me the most intimate in front of everyone, and you are telling them that I am a woman. You always deny it I am in a relationship with you, and you dare not hold my hand openly and actively in the crowd...Jiang Chen, do you know when you will show that you love me the most? At the darkest moment."

"Jiang Chen, think about it carefully...have you ever said that you like me?"

"I said, when you were asleep, I said every night..." His love was much earlier than He Chuan's, and he couldn't express his secret love buried in countless nights. He Chuan was not pushed away during the first intimate act.

There was another long sigh, revealing a tone of helplessness and despair, "Do you think I can read minds?"

Jiang Chen cried and refuted him, "Love this thing, you don't just talk about it, you don't love you as much as I do!"

"I don't love you?" He Chuan sneered.

This sneer made Jiang Chen feel cold, as if he was laughing at his shallow knowledge, questioning his feelings, and denying countless days and nights of love.

Jiang Chen retorted, "If you really love me, would you break up with me? How can you solve the problem without discussing it with me? If you really love me, how could you give up so easily? Ah? Talk to me! Lahei? Will you stand here and watch me persuade you to stay, watch me beg, and be indifferent? "

"I, forget it... I don't want to talk about it, let's do it like this..." He Chuan pushed him away, turned back to open the door, leaving only his thin back and a sentence:

"Just pretend that I don't love you."