readytorunbook Chapter 217 The road is long and difficult
Chapter 217 The road is long and difficult
Zhao Fangyu shook her head decisively. She would be happier if Zhao Minshan was dead than alive. Such a cold-blooded man would only climb up by stepping on the bones and blood of his wife and daughter. It would be safer for him to be dead.
Zhao Fangyu originally thought that the Madam would not use the medicine she gave her, but she did not expect that the Madam was more powerful than she thought. Judging from the time, maybe she had already started to use the medicine when she entered the palace?
"When did mother come up with this idea?"
Zhao Fangyu couldn't understand what Zhao Minshan had done to anger God and man that made the eldest lady so cruel as to drug him.
She remembered that the medicine she had sent was not so effective. Besides, she didn't spend much time at home and didn't have much sense of the changes in Zhao Minshan. After all, it was only one or two meals, so it was impossible to see any difference.
The eldest lady brought Zhao Fangyu back to her original seat and sat her down, gently patting her back and saying, "Your father is old, and he often has his mind wandering. In order to return to the court, he often thinks of some far-fetched ideas."
"When you were in the palace, he even had the idea of marrying Fang Yun and Fang Mo off. He wanted Fang Yun to marry someone as a concubine first, and then marry Fang Mo as the main wife when she was old enough. This was such an absurd idea..."
"I knew then that I couldn't stay here."
There is a big age difference between Zhao Fangyun and Zhao Fangmo. Zhao Fangyu was shocked at Zhao Minshan's stupidity, but also understood the eldest lady's motive. Zhao Fangmo was the eldest lady's daughter who came later in life, and they all loved her very much on weekdays. But Zhao Minshan actually wanted to marry her to his superiors as a deal?
What kind of father would do such a thing?
The eldest lady and Zhao Fangyu looked at each other and knew that they had a similar idea.
There was a man who had served as the Minister of the Ministry of Revenue at home and was able to maintain the mansion. But now, in order to regain the position of Minister, this man can even come up with such a dirty idea, which shows that he has little sense of propriety and shame.
"Mrs. Song tried so hard to find a marriage, and I helped to send the man to the old lady, and finally it was successful."
"It was also from that time that I made some changes to my daily diet."
The eldest lady spoke slowly, but Zhao Fangyu could easily hear the difficulty in her voice.
It was near the end of the year, and the eldest lady was busy managing the allocation of food to maintain a good reputation for Zhao Minshan. She paid for him to distribute porridge outside the city at her own expense. At the same time, she also had to guard against Zhao Minshan's intentions on the two unmarried girls.
Zhao Minshan's stupidity was not only due to his resentment after falling from a high place, but also due to his resentment caused by his inability to control the situation.
When he was an official, naturally everything was good for him, and his wife in the harem was just a feast for the eyes. But when he fell into poverty, his wife in the harem was still rich and leisurely, and he felt unfair.
In the eyes of men, women should always live and die for men. When he is glorious, they have their benefits, and when he is down, these people should also suffer with him.
The eldest lady was kind and willing to use the money to support the life of the harem, but she was unwilling to use the money to build a palace for Zhao Minshan, so Zhao Minshan made his own plans...
The result of the plan is to use the children to climb up!
This decision made the protective eldest lady realize that the crisis was approaching, so she first built a wall, chased Zhao Minshan from the front and blocked him from the back, and quietly trapped him.
"The drug will gradually make people dizzy. Over time, they will slowly become insane, drooling, their hands and feet will tremble, and they will not be able to speak clearly."
Zhao Fangyu's eyes almost glowed as she looked at the eldest lady. She had never thought that the eldest lady could be so bold and resolute.
It was just an incomplete sign, but it was enough for her to take action against Zhao Minshan!
The eldest lady pinched Zhao Fangyu's soft cheek with amusement. She knew that she had not taught the child any thundering methods over the years, but she did not expect that this girl Zhao Fangyu could be so scared by two lives that she could not sleep.
It would be fine if it was Zhao Fangjin, but with Zhao Fangyu's current status and position, if he continues to be as obedient as he was in the past, there's no telling how he will be bullied.
There are some things that shouldn't be said, but she still wants to tell Zhao Fangyu:
"If you are not ruthless, you will not be able to stand firm. There is gain and loss. If you care about what you lose and ignore what you want to gain, you will end up with nothing."
"Human life is the most valuable and the least valuable. Fang Lan brought this upon herself, and Yun Xiang is not completely innocent either. You were trying to protect yourself, not to hurt others, so you don't need to blame yourself."
"They want to step on your bones to move forward. You either step back or be stepped on by them. If you let them succeed because of so-called propriety, righteousness, and shame, I despise such girls."
In Longxi, such people are called pedantic if you put it nicely, and cowards who are so exhausted from holding their urine if you put it bluntly.
If Zhao Fangyu can be ruthless and stand her ground, her future path will be smoother.
If she cannot stand on her own feet, even with the support of the Li family, she will be nothing more than a dodder that depends on the Li family and will not be of much use.
Zhao Fangyu knew what the eldest lady meant by these words, and slowly buried his head in her clothes again.
The three moral values that have been in place for many years seem to have cracks, and something new is growing wildly.
No one told her that you can be unreasonable.
The eldest lady didn't care what Zhao Fangyu thought. She just pulled Zhao Fangyu up and walked into the sun, waiting for the sun to bathe her whole body. She was tanned and felt like a plant being nourished by the sun.
The eldest lady looked at the golden sunlight that spread all over the ground in front of her, and said in a soft but powerful tone: "If you have a clear conscience, you don't have to worry about it."
"There are countless ways to achieve both in this world, but most of them are just hindsight. You are so young, and it's already great that you can do this."
Zhao Fangyu laughed in a daze, not for himself, but for the eldest lady.
The purpose of doing this for Dadu is simple and pure. It doesn't even have anything to do with herself, it's just for her children.
But this is the path the eldest lady wants to take.
She chose to be a mother and protect every child under her wings, including Zhao Fangyu. To achieve this, she would do anything, even murder and arson.
Even if the knife was pointed at her husband, she would not show mercy.
What about her path?
Zhao Fangyu asked herself, her road is longer and more difficult, but the sword has been drawn and she will not stop.
Even if the eldest lady hadn't had this conversation today...she wouldn't stop.
The person who should be killed is not her, and the person who should die is not her.
She will cry and feel sad, but she will still do it.
She will kill many more people in the future, some of whom may even be innocent, but she wants to go to a higher place, so it is inevitable that her hands will be stained with blood.
If she could do it, millions of people would benefit. She would spend the rest of her life managing this land with Zhou Qinghe, letting prosperity atone for her sins.
"I just...can't get out."
“Once you walk out of it, you feel that it’s nothing special.”
"It was like a veil, it was holding me back, not letting me go forward, but I tore it apart, and my body was covered in blood."